Dreams

Gw itu suka overthinking. Aquarius sih /ngeles/. Tapi emang otak gw ga bisa berhenti mikir, ada aja yang dipikirin, walau ga penting. Apalagi kalo lagi pengen sesuatu atau merasa bersalah, beuh. Contohnya itu pas ke Hong Kong kemaren, asli nahan diri abis-abisan biar ga nyomot wine dan bir. Sampe-sampe gw mimpi minum wine dongs. Red and white, I tasted both. Terus enak gitu rasanya. Enaknya gimana? Gatau juga, gitu deh, namanya juga mimpi. Terus bangun-bangun jadi makin pengen nyoba............. Sesuatu banget setan-setannya gw-.-

Btw, ini lagi di kantor. Berhubung Jumat, kayaknya gw akan makin gabut dibanding biasanya. Terus salah kostum dong, mestinya batik. Gw malah pake kemeja biasa-_-

Apalagi yak? Aduh sakit perut-.- #abaikan. Soal sakit, entah mengapa I got bruise in my left thigh, biru nyeremin gitu, bingung kepentok apa pas di HK-.- Terus ankle kiri juga agak bengkak(?) dan nyeri gitu. Sama leher kanan, nyeri kalo lagi nelen sesuatu. Ini tubuh gw kok tetiba jadi lemah...........-.-

Huft yasudah, tak tau apalagi yang mau daku tuliskan #naon.

Journey to Hong Kong

Saat ini lagi di kantor, gabut dan ga ada temennya. April entah kemana, kemungkinan sih pergi ke klien sama Mas Fachrur dan gw ditinggal :" Adeknya April diopname so dia pulang ke Ponorogo ternyata. Sebenernya bisa sih ga gabut (mungkin), tinggal request minta sesuatu buat dikerjain ke mas/mbak disini. Tapi gwnya belom mood dan ngantuk /plak/. Yaudah mari ngeblog.
(intro di atas ditulis dari Selasa dan sekarang Kamis, fyi aja)

I.miss.you

Yeah, you. You know who you are. So much that it's suffocating. But you don't want to be called right. I would like to skype you but here is working space and office hour. Calling you would be much more private actually... Hem, I don't even know when you'll read this post.

Extraordinary

That is how I describe these past two days. Actually it's sorta like that lately, ga cuma 2 hari terakhir sih. Tidur cuma 3 jam > jalan seharian > diajakin ikut kontes video > syuting videonya > tidur 'cuma' nyaris 5 jam > interview magang > langsung kerja abis interview > menang kontes. Alhamdulillah banget, unbelievable rasanya. Apalagi model pesimis kayak gw. Cerita lengkap soal kontes dan hadiah menangnya nanti kali yak abis dari sana. Butuh bayar utang tidur. Di kantor tadi aja ngantuk pake banget gw nyaris tidur di meja. Gatau juga kenapa bisa menang, I was such a mess di video itu haha. Okay sleep.

Mandiri

(now playing: Royals by Lorde, Only One by JYJ)

Bukan, bukan nama bank. Sifat maksudnya. Entah mengapa gw merasa sifat itu berkurang dari gw(?). Apa-apa nempel sama...... Tia u.u;;; Though I fully know I should have been more independent. Kayak pas gw niat jadi Peneva, ga ada temennya kan. Turned out they are fun people. Harusnya jangan terbawa arus sih (yang pada magang) atau jangan ngikut-ngikutin orang juga. Duh dasar plin-plan, indecisive-.- Mau les Jepang lagi aja males bener nelpon tempat lesnya bzz. Terus nyetir belom bisa-bisa, ga latian sih. Tes TOEFL juga belom nyari infonya. Terus yang....... ah sudahlah, I've got too many plans, zero movement-_-
Ngomong-ngomong soal magang, sepertinya kalo ga diterima gw akan les-les aja. Magang itu kayaknya ga mengaplikasikan ilmu perkuliahan juga kalo ditempatinnya ga pas. Karena magang motivasinya harus nyari ilmu atau ya nyari duit. I don't have the drive for both. Bukannya gamau pinter atau gamau nyari duit, emang belum berminat aja. Duit pengen sih, mayan buat jalan-jalan, makan enak. Tapi bukan kebutuhan kan? Malah jadi hura-hura, hambur ga jelas, boros. Ga hobi belanja juga (although gw butuh mengimprove outfit sepertinya). Terus ga pengen magang di kantor-kantor yang bergengsi itu sih, ilmu yang gw punya belom kuat (yeah that inferiority complex strikes again).So I think I'll improve my skills in other area, perhaps it'll help me to get bigger chance ditempatin di Jakarta? Amin.

This and that

Yah sepertinya tidur cepet buat gw itu cuma wacana. Mari buat post gaje :v

me (facing my laptop, playing games): pa katanya hari ini hari ayah. selamat yak :v
sis (facing her phone): selamat~
dad (facing his laptop, playing games): hari ayah apaan? :v
me: hari ayah nasional sih katanya, di twitter pada bilang gitu. kalo ga liat juga gatau xD
dad: oh

mom: ini buku kenapa ditumpuk begini?
me: oh itu belom dibaca, dikumpulin jadi satu aja..
mom: kok quran ga ikutan ditumpuk disini? :)
me: ........ :)) udah pernah dibaca kan itu :p
/nyinyirnya nyokap duh/ xD

Hari ini finally melihat beyond Stasiun Pondok Ranji, turun di Serpong \o/ keluyuran gw jauh juga yak~

Penasaran sama debat yang heboh diomongin, ternyata debat hiburan(?) toh :)) Terus gw baca sampe kelar pula, dasar pengangguran xD

Diliat dari kontak bbm yang ga nambah, sepertinya semua invite yang gw kirim pas barengan Ulfah di IKANAS ga ada yang nyampe. Entah koneksi gw yang abal atau BBMnya u.u;;;

Ah, sepertinya kabel data X10 udah harus pensiun, udah ga bisa diselametin selotip. Masa dipake ngecas hape ga nambah baterenya. Ya emang harusnya move on(?) completely dari hape lama sih ya :"

Laper. Udah makan malem padahal-.- Yaudah ngemilin Hershey Kisses, tapi pegel juga. Yaudah tidur aja kali yak :v (ah wacana lu ce)

Ini yang baca post gw lebih pengangguran dari gw kali yak :p

Yow

Mencoba sok sibuk selama weekend, lumayan mengimprove mood \o/ Dance memang selalu menyenangkan~ Lumayan juga berhasil menghindari acara keluarga yang kata nyokap ternyata ga rame =)) Plus udah liat Helmy Yahya juga yey. Ga foto bareng sih, ga minat emang._. Ngomong-ngomong minat, I barely interested in anything, sampe nyokap ngomel. Sedang hampa(?) ga ada passion untuk ngapa-ngapain gitu. Buku-buku yang biasanya sekejap abis aja sampe numpuk begini http://t.co/MvdJf1zMsi .
Anyway lagi-lagi gw mengalami krisis berat badan. Gw ga ngapa-ngapain di rumah aja berat gw turun bzzzz. Turunnya dari awal tingkat 3 sih, efek pulang pergi mungkin (udah pernah gw bahas kayaknya). Tapi ya gitu, makin kesini makin turun, naeknya susah-_- Damn padahal selama ngekos (dari awal kuliah) itu naek loh. Sekarang angkanya kembali ke pas awal kuliah dulu. Maybe I'm happier at kosan? /diusir dari rumah/ Porsi makan gw juga menurun. Pengen balik SMA dimana gw bisa makan 5 kali sehari -.- Tapi gw makan sebanyak itu mungkin karena tingakt sibuknya berbeda sama sekarang-sekarang..
Ehya Reuni IKANAS itu 3 tahun sekali katanya. 3 tahun lagi, bisa dateng ga ya.... How do I look by that time... Semoga penempatan Jakarta deh biar bisa dateng amin! Eh terus kalo dateng ngapain yak? Kalo ga ada temen-temennya buat foto-foto(?) sih ya ngapain dateng /plak.
Eh katanya sih orang yang happy makannya lebih banyak. Yaudah gw akan mencoba lebih happy dari biasanya, ga mikir banyak-banyak lagi ah.

PS: I feel stupid, susunan ceritanya ga elaborate-.-

Kelabu

I don't know why but I feel so negative. Home alone dan mendung pula (sempet hujan sih). Thought reading will cheer me up a bit but seems it has no effect. Play my iTunes but actually nothing I'd like to listen to, not in the mood. About books, I finally managed to finish Fifty Shades of Grey. Not a happy ending yet. I don't know if I'll read the 2nd and 3rd books. It's a refreshing choice of book for me. It wasn't as bad as I thought first. Ha, seems I still judgmental towards several things. I bought two novels too when I went to bookfair, while I still have unfinished ones.

About the negativity. I feel like I'm selfish. I know it's not right but............. can't help it. I think I'm quite individualist. I feeli like I'm not a good daughter either (abis dinasehatin nyokap di telepon). Like I've ever become one, I just look like one pfftt. Sorry mom. Kadang juga suka masih suudzan(?), efek think too deep and too much. Enaknya sih ketipu aja gitu(?) atau ga mikir macem-macem terhadap niatan orang, just take it as it looks like. I also get envious and jealous easily, even to heroines in mangas and novels ha ha. Oh seriously C, maybe you really have to join personality school(?) to fix those nasty traits. Ini gw meracau apasih. Yaudah, pokoknya lagi negatif. Honestly I would like to talk to people but I don't want to affect their mood so........... udah gitu aja.

PS: #Aquarius can't help but to be drawn to the unusual, the unordinary, or the forbidden.
oh true.

Early morning

Heyho. Ended up here after going around twitter and facebook. Currently watching Juventus vs Real Madrid, kinda miss watching my first favorite club. Actually I don't know what I should write. Yesterday was a totally sleepy day. I feel somewhat lazy and sleep a lot, but my mom kinda forced me to go with her, so I sleep in the car. Once arrived home I even went to sleep earlier lol. Ugh I hate seeing Pirlo's beard, can't he shave it?-.- I'm rooting for Juve, but I think I should give credits for Casillas, he did awesome saves. Oh wait, Juve got penalty and it went in. Scored by Vidal. 42', 1-0~ I always like seeing Juve playing home. Their supporters always make white black stripes and other shapes. Half time.
Everytime my mom scolds me, she treated internet like arch enemy hahaha. Then she'll say 'Sekeliling kamu banyak setannya sih, makanya kamu males' and blaming games and internet. I'll just laugh it off :)) But she can't get mad at my dad who actually did pretty much the same like me, tch.
Ah for recent Kpop updates, I kinda excited about Trouble Maker's comeback. They pulled a sexier concept than before, even their MV rated 19+ xD. But kinda disappointed since the dance the performed isn't as sexy and as intimate like the video. Another updates is Young Saeng already enlisted to military, but he present fans with SS501 reunion before leaving. Indeed our sweet prince :")
Uh oh I'm running out idea about what to write. Hope Juventus win this match! Forza! \m/

[update]
Full Time score is 2-2, thanks to Llorente. Ohkay let's sleep again, got a plan for later.

Cirebon

I'm currently at Cirebon, attending a relative's wedding. Lagi akad nikah, terus gw ngeblog. Cacat, iya. Hem. Tapi otak lagi banyak pikiran. Too bad I can't pour it here. Terus dengerin kata-kata penghulunya dan ijab kabulnya jadi sedih. Kenapa? Gitu deh. *melancholic me strikes again*. Oh I did something stupid too. I'm just fucking annoying eh :"). Then I realized I'm being a bitch once before. But that time I apologize easily. Now the circumstances are different, well I'll just accept being ignored. My stupid fault anyway. Errrr yaudah apasih abaikan saja.