Memories

When I opened Facebook this morning, the first thing I saw is an update about a friend's birthday. Sounds normal right? Except that dear friend of mine is already dead. That went the same when I open Path. All the memories came back, and her smile is the one thing that I remember the most. 

*a moment to cry*

Okay, I'm calmer now. The thing is that I currently facing a problem and stress, and this melancholic side of me took control. My thoughts are "She should have live and I die instead" "If I die, will people remember me like they remember her?" "Will my friends come to my funeral like we came to hers?" Well yeah that's a lot of thoughts about death, but since I am such a coward to approach death, all are in my head only. Apparently I can encourage people except myself.

Girl, I don't know why but I believe that you rest in total peace. If God let me enter His heaven, shall we meet there? With lots of laugh and gossip like we used to do.

I love you.

I miss you.