midnite post

i know it's silly but i do feel envious oftenly towards lead female character of shoujo manga or drama. well, that's a prove that i'm still a girl.... right? lol.

okay gotta sleep.

おやすみに~

holiday

still on holiday. spent my time mostly on bed or in front of laptop, if no one asked me out. but it starts to be boring, so i start to learn KARA's Lupin dance. hard but it's nice! feels like doing some sport lol. i wish i can master it before my holiday ends. once i did it, i'll record my dance and put it on my youtube~ tho that's still a long way to go >.<
ah ya i also gonna watch fast5 later fufufu. sport cars i'm comin~
jalja. gotta bath now. will learn the dance moves again before leaving for cinema. or maybe write another post.

my worst mood i ever had.

and one day i probably have worse mood than this time. every single time i clash with my parents i felt so angry, as if i want to burn them. but at the same time felt guilty towards SS501, who always tell us fans to respect our parents. but i can't. really sorry guys. i dislike my parent (i can't really say i hate them) especially my mom. she makes every mistakes i did looks like a big mistake that can ruin the world. well, i do think i ruin a world. her ideal world, that is. she kept my phone just because i haven't bath yet at 5PM, which is my habit. yeah, she's angry with me for such a crappy reason. and i was angrier than her. the fact i can't show it is frustrating. the only thing i could do is punching my bed (i want to punch her face, but that's impossible without getting more problem). want to scream: FUCKYOU!

she never learn my habit. seriously... hey life is never always the same like how you want it to be.

i wish when i graduate, i'll be placed outside jakarta so i could get out from this house.