Baper post

Baper gimana? Baper cuma gegara ada yang lagi ultah di kosan sekarang. Karena isinya anak-anak mahasiswa, ya bisa dikira-kira lah seberapa ramenya nyurprisinnya.  Terus jadi inget pas jaman ngekos di pisok dapet surprise juga. Jarang dapet surprise sih, jadi inget berapa kalinya. Pernah dari pisokers, pernah dari ciwi2 78 STAN, pernah juga dari geng bigos. Ga pernah heboh sih tapi ya.... seneng aja hehe. Jadi kangen mereka huaaaa :") Baik-baik ya kalian dimanapun kalian berada :")

Hidup

Hidup itu tuntutan.
Seberat apapun, sudah tidak ingin dan mencoba bunuh diri, akan ada yang mencoba menyelamatkan dan dituntut untuk hidup.

Hidup itu pilihan.
Antara kebutuhan dan keinginan. Antara diri sendiri atau orang lain. Antara prinsip dan kebiasaan.

Hidup itu kewajiban.
Sebagai anak. Sebagai orangtua, Sebagai pasangan. Sebagai atasan. Sebagai bawahan. Sebagai hamba Tuhan. Sebagai warga negara. Sebagai pemimpin. Sebagai pengikut. Sebagai manusia.


Hidup itu dinikmati.
Karena tidak semua hal berjalan sesuai harapan, sampai mati.

Mutasi Pertama

Alias penempatan. Every STANers will go through this phase. Jeng jeng jeng... tau-tau keluar di siang bolong (literally) di saat gw bahkan ga di kantor, ngelayap beli bahan buat takjil. Terus dapet KPP Pratama Tigaraksa. "Jauh" adalah komennya pacar, nyokap, tante-tante gw. Saat belom masuk kantor ngerasanya "Ah, biasa aja, Serpong masih banyak mall". Tapi apalah arti banyak mall kalau angkotnya langka, dan bahkan ga lewatin mallnya -_- Terus gw ngekos, yang mana kudu nyari makan sendiri, dan disini nyari makan susahnya ampun deh. Ngekos kali ini pun berasa beda, sekosan besar puluhan kamar yang bahkan gw gatau kamar kanan kiri gw siapa. Jadi kangen pisokers girls :( And I brokedown in 3rd day. Sekarang 4th day. I've mocked myself in my mind, lemah amat, temen gw cewek juga di Sumatra dan Kalimantan aja ga (ketahuan) ngeluh. Terus dapet seksi yang gw buta kerjaannya apa. Belom kenal dengan banyak orang while temen-temen gw udah kenal dengan mayoritas orang kantor karena pernah magang disitu. Ga diajakin keliling juga, gatau gimana mau kenalannya. Pengen nimbrung2 takut dikira sok asik. I miss Jakarta already........... Yang biasa pulang kantor ketemu pacar ini kudu nunggu weekend. Alhamdulillah besok Jumat, kalo bisa pengen pulang besok malem juga :")) Udah ah segini dulu aja, kasian mi ayam gw dingin nanti.

Pokoknya harus bisa nyetir dan punya mobil sendiri sesegera mungkin! Mau PP aja dari rumah....

Happy Birthday

I was excited about this since a month before. I made plans. Too bad there are many holes, and fail to satisfy you. I hope if it's not your best, it's not your worst.

I have a lot of prayer for you. I hope God hears it and grants it. I wish for you to be successful in love, life and career. Hope you find happiness in this world and hereafter. I wish you got a long, prosper and healthy life. I wish God grants your wish. Amen.

I am grateful that you were born, met me and made me feel valued, needed, useful. Maybe I'm not your first, but I dream to be your last.

I wish we can celebrate your next birthday together.

I love you.

With you

I don't know how to convey this to you. Twitter has limited characters and things I want to say is immeasurable. But I want you to know that....
With you, I feel powerful.
You give me strength and the drive to move forward.
With you, I feel safe.
Like nobody's gonna hurt me, ever.
With you, I feel peace.
Your hug always calm my stormy mind.
With you, I feel home.
The place I hate to leave and always want to return.
With you, I feel sure.
That every soul has their mate, and mine is yours.

If it's not love, then I don't know what love is.

I hope you also feel that way.

If you don't....... I don't want to think so, but....
that means I fail as your partner. I'm sorry.

Almost New Year

Well. That's how fast time passes by. I still remember what I hoped in previous new-years. I don't know what I should hope for next. Can I just hope for the best in everything without being specific? Because I don't know what else I should do to turn my hope into something real. Hey, God knows what's best for me, I can just leave it to Him, right? Pray more, worry less. Gotta drill those words in my head. Should stop trying to figure people out, also stop thinking that my thoughts are the truth.

Oh, one thing for sure I still want to be able to drive. I also want to be able to apply make-up. I need that to have better mask.

6th week

Whew, it's been a long time since I post something. I'm on my 6th week working in this building, from either 4th or 5th floor. The view I often see is people march for demonstration. The cafeteria is small with not many variant of food, but cheaper from next door. There's also new uniform rule. Hmm I don't know what to post. Still not doing much things ppffttt. Well, I try to enjoy as best as I could. Although I still feel that I'm in the wrong place.......... I'll just figure things out as time goes by. Anyway There are many kinds of people, good ones, got treated sometimes xD. Okay that's it for now.

Oh, I just remember my paycheck is still on hold. Hope I get good news about it this evening.

#2

Kala badai menderu
Kau melaju
Berlalu
Tanpa tuju
Berlari hingga tak menapak lagi kaki
Mencibir, mencaci

Aku terdiam, menatap malam
Bulan tertutup awan hitam
Langit menumpahkan amarah,
membasahi tanah

Akhirnya cerah, silau
Mataku nanar, pandangi penjuru
Terlihat tiang layar, membawa dirimu
Dengan senyuman
disambut pelukan

Gegara nontonin AADC (film dan mini drama) yang banyak puisi dan narasi bagus, jadilah mood bikin ini.
Iya tau, levelnya ga nyampe seujung skillnya Cinta/Rangga.