Tenggelamnya Kapal Van Der Wijck [warning: spoiler]

Awalnya emang mau nonton, tapi ga jadi gegara males duluan seetelah baca sinopsisnya. Tapi nyokap tau-tau semangat ngajakin nonton, yaudah jadinya nonton deh. Turns out not as bad as I thought. Banyak kalimat puitis dan romantis, sadis tapi ga najis (yeah it rhymes haha). I'll quote several maybe kalo inget haha.

At Station

I miss the train, berangkat pas gw nyampe stasiun-.- Sebenernya yang mau dibahas bukan itu sih. Akhir-akhir ini kalo tidur sering mimpi, dan aneh-aneh. Kemaren-kemaren dreamless padahal. Tadi pagi aja mimpinya dikejar-kejar om-om tua(?) mau dilamar, terus gw nolak tapi dia kekeuh. Gw lari, ngumpet, eh ketauan, lari lagi, ngumpet lagi, ketauan lagi, repeat. Ga inget endingnya gimana u.u;; Udah sih itu dulu, takut lupa mimpinya apa makanya buru-buru ngeblog #random

Eye-catching

I was paraphrasing, continuing my work (yep it's Sunday and I chose to finish my work haha) but after only a paragraph I decide to refresh my twitter timeline. I found two interesting things, an article and a video.

The video was tweeted by KARA's Seungyeon, but she only tweeted the video link, so as usual I'm curious about what it is. Turns out it's a video of university student doing flashmob, and play Arirang (Korean folk song, often sung in the end of kpop concerts) in orchestra. You may watch it below.

 

It makes me think, if Indonesia Pusaka (or any other lagu wajib nasional or Indonesian folk song) are played in this style, it would be cool, wouldn't it? Also will promote Indonesia culture better. Well, it's just an idea and opinion from me. I don't have the capabilities to arrange that pffftt.

The article is about how Japanese elderly preparing for their death.
http://bigstory.ap.org/article/early-end-life-plan-elderly-aging-japan
No, they aren't going to suicide. They plan about how their dead body will be treated, either cremated or buried. They plan and calculate the cost, cloths, who will take care of those process, etc. I may say, they are ready to die. It would be good if all people has such mindset. Such plan will minimize the burden of their children or relatives or neighbors. It makes me, when I'm older, maybe will prepare such things too haha. Nyeh but am such a coward, not sure I can ready myself like that lol.

Okay back to paraphrasing~

Sunny day

Cerahnya panas terik di luar, tapi angin sepoi-sepoi. Perfect weather to sleep, bokap nyokap aja pules bet tidurnya. Pengen ngikut tidur sih, tapi I already slept a lot (kayaknya). So bingung mau ngapain._. Ada sih yang bisa ditonton, dibaca atau dikerjain............. Apa nyelesein tugas kantor aja? hahahahaha (seriously C it's weekend! *rolls eyes*). Tapi kalo belom selesai ya gitu, kepikiran terus euy.

Gatau kenapa tapi badan lagi kurang sehat(?) kayaknya. Bersin-bersin, pegel-pegel. Mau flu maybe. Perasaan tidur gw udah banyak juga-.-

Karena sekarang jarang ketemu teman sepermainan(?) jadilah nonton Catching Fire dan The Hobbit: Desolation of Smaug sendiri. Both films are worth the wait xD I enjoyed the movies a lot, so ya sebodo amat mau kanan kiri gw orang pacaran juga xD Next year both film ketiga/terakhirnya rilis, entah akan nonton sendiri atau sama siapa. Jangan-jangan udah penempatan terus di kota itu ga ada bioskop................ Ya Allah jangan sampe :" /bay/  Btw abis nonton The Hobbit jadi pengen ke New Zealand, buat motoin scenerynya. Dari abis TLOTR sih sebenernya, tapi baru kepengen lagi jadinya.

Kamis kemaren diajakin ke klien sama senior. Meetingnya sih bentar, kalo ditotal cuma sekitar 2,5 jam. tapi ya perjalanannya bolak balik ditotal juga segitu. Berangkat kantor jam 9, balik nyampe kantor lagi setengah 5. Sia-sia deh gw berat-berat bawa laptop hari itu u.u Pas paginya, si pak manajer yang lulusan STAN bilang pas ngobrol-ngobrol, gw di KPP PMA aja (kerjanya, penempatannya). Aminin aja lah ya hahaha. Lalu pas ngobrol2 makan siang, bilangnya keluar aja setelah 5 tahun. Terus kerja di konsultan, atau perusahaan, lebih menarik dia bilang. Jiahahaha si bapak, entahlah karir gw akan gimana, semoga di Jakarta terus haha. Bukan karena gamau jauh dari orang tua sih. This city has all I want and need. Kalo di luar Jakarta mau nonton konser susah kan u.u

PS: nemu begini "#Aquarius will never reveal their innermost feelings, no matter how hard others may try to persuade them" tapi kok kayaknya fail akhir2 ini u.u;;;

titik dua huruf v

Gw mimpi menang tiket Djakarta Warehouse Project 2013, padahal minat nonton aja ga ada, ngikut kuis juga ngga. Bangun-bangun super mager jadi kereta yang biasa udah lewat. Nyampe Tanjung Barat angkotnya ga lama setelah dinaekin mogok, disuruh cari angkot laen. Absurd morning.

Kemaren tanggal bagus. Ga ada yang bagus sih, cuma sms Zahra yang entah kesambet apa so sweet bener dan Victoria's Secret Fashion Show.

Let's see what I can post about the rest of the day, I'll edit this post later probably. No update artinya gabut yes haha.

PS: It's like the universe conspire against me on that matter pft :"

Monday

The start of the 4th week here. Honestly, I prefer they gave me lots of work than do nothing. I mean, isn't it what I (will be) paid for? Plus it's sorta uncomfortable, people around you facing laptop and getting busy while me just reading e-book, blog, tweet, gaming, etc. Mom said I should be asking around about what I can do, but it's the 3rd week already? And they appear to be busy so when I asked, I'll just get 'oh, yeah, later.' So it's not my fault right........? Oh well...

What do you want to do before you die?

I was scrolling twitter and found this article http://bigstory.ap.org/article/public-art-project-elicits-profound-profane about walls which painted with "Before I die I want to..." and people who are passing by filling in the blanks. They wrote various things. My favorite one quoted in that article is "...find the yin to my yang.", it's kinda errrm sweet? I don't know haha, I just like it. Then my mind asks "How about you C? What do you want to do?". Honestly I think I will come up with a very long list... But my ultimate goal? Hmmmm what should it be?
*thinking*
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Okay, I don't know hahaha. I would like to fill it with something which once I did it, I don't mind if I die instantly afterwards. But I haven't found that something yet. So.... let me seek for it awhile longer, hope I have enough lifetime to find and achieve whatever it is :)

On the train

Currently on my way home, standing inside commuter line and blogging, instead of grabbing the handheld. There's ibu2 yang lesehan bukannya berdiri, baru berdiri setelah kesenggol gw. I don't know what to blog actually, I just feel like it haha. Sometimes I underestimate my body eh? I know my balance is quite good, but it's still good though my ankle is injured(?) XD. I'm inside the woman only gerbong (fak I forgot its English), dont really like it here actually. They are all chatty with each other,  while I prefer silence. Oh back to topic. Sometimes I feel like I've been through tiring days or weeks and I think I might faint or fall sick, but actually I can pass them well and healthy. Oh reaching Tebet, I got empty seat. My laptop is heavy to carry huft. Erm what else? I still have several stops until Juanda. Oh they aren't that berisik actually, just sometimes. Lowbat argh. Kaybye.

Dreams

Gw itu suka overthinking. Aquarius sih /ngeles/. Tapi emang otak gw ga bisa berhenti mikir, ada aja yang dipikirin, walau ga penting. Apalagi kalo lagi pengen sesuatu atau merasa bersalah, beuh. Contohnya itu pas ke Hong Kong kemaren, asli nahan diri abis-abisan biar ga nyomot wine dan bir. Sampe-sampe gw mimpi minum wine dongs. Red and white, I tasted both. Terus enak gitu rasanya. Enaknya gimana? Gatau juga, gitu deh, namanya juga mimpi. Terus bangun-bangun jadi makin pengen nyoba............. Sesuatu banget setan-setannya gw-.-

Btw, ini lagi di kantor. Berhubung Jumat, kayaknya gw akan makin gabut dibanding biasanya. Terus salah kostum dong, mestinya batik. Gw malah pake kemeja biasa-_-

Apalagi yak? Aduh sakit perut-.- #abaikan. Soal sakit, entah mengapa I got bruise in my left thigh, biru nyeremin gitu, bingung kepentok apa pas di HK-.- Terus ankle kiri juga agak bengkak(?) dan nyeri gitu. Sama leher kanan, nyeri kalo lagi nelen sesuatu. Ini tubuh gw kok tetiba jadi lemah...........-.-

Huft yasudah, tak tau apalagi yang mau daku tuliskan #naon.

Journey to Hong Kong

Saat ini lagi di kantor, gabut dan ga ada temennya. April entah kemana, kemungkinan sih pergi ke klien sama Mas Fachrur dan gw ditinggal :" Adeknya April diopname so dia pulang ke Ponorogo ternyata. Sebenernya bisa sih ga gabut (mungkin), tinggal request minta sesuatu buat dikerjain ke mas/mbak disini. Tapi gwnya belom mood dan ngantuk /plak/. Yaudah mari ngeblog.
(intro di atas ditulis dari Selasa dan sekarang Kamis, fyi aja)

I.miss.you

Yeah, you. You know who you are. So much that it's suffocating. But you don't want to be called right. I would like to skype you but here is working space and office hour. Calling you would be much more private actually... Hem, I don't even know when you'll read this post.

Extraordinary

That is how I describe these past two days. Actually it's sorta like that lately, ga cuma 2 hari terakhir sih. Tidur cuma 3 jam > jalan seharian > diajakin ikut kontes video > syuting videonya > tidur 'cuma' nyaris 5 jam > interview magang > langsung kerja abis interview > menang kontes. Alhamdulillah banget, unbelievable rasanya. Apalagi model pesimis kayak gw. Cerita lengkap soal kontes dan hadiah menangnya nanti kali yak abis dari sana. Butuh bayar utang tidur. Di kantor tadi aja ngantuk pake banget gw nyaris tidur di meja. Gatau juga kenapa bisa menang, I was such a mess di video itu haha. Okay sleep.

Mandiri

(now playing: Royals by Lorde, Only One by JYJ)

Bukan, bukan nama bank. Sifat maksudnya. Entah mengapa gw merasa sifat itu berkurang dari gw(?). Apa-apa nempel sama...... Tia u.u;;; Though I fully know I should have been more independent. Kayak pas gw niat jadi Peneva, ga ada temennya kan. Turned out they are fun people. Harusnya jangan terbawa arus sih (yang pada magang) atau jangan ngikut-ngikutin orang juga. Duh dasar plin-plan, indecisive-.- Mau les Jepang lagi aja males bener nelpon tempat lesnya bzz. Terus nyetir belom bisa-bisa, ga latian sih. Tes TOEFL juga belom nyari infonya. Terus yang....... ah sudahlah, I've got too many plans, zero movement-_-
Ngomong-ngomong soal magang, sepertinya kalo ga diterima gw akan les-les aja. Magang itu kayaknya ga mengaplikasikan ilmu perkuliahan juga kalo ditempatinnya ga pas. Karena magang motivasinya harus nyari ilmu atau ya nyari duit. I don't have the drive for both. Bukannya gamau pinter atau gamau nyari duit, emang belum berminat aja. Duit pengen sih, mayan buat jalan-jalan, makan enak. Tapi bukan kebutuhan kan? Malah jadi hura-hura, hambur ga jelas, boros. Ga hobi belanja juga (although gw butuh mengimprove outfit sepertinya). Terus ga pengen magang di kantor-kantor yang bergengsi itu sih, ilmu yang gw punya belom kuat (yeah that inferiority complex strikes again).So I think I'll improve my skills in other area, perhaps it'll help me to get bigger chance ditempatin di Jakarta? Amin.

This and that

Yah sepertinya tidur cepet buat gw itu cuma wacana. Mari buat post gaje :v

me (facing my laptop, playing games): pa katanya hari ini hari ayah. selamat yak :v
sis (facing her phone): selamat~
dad (facing his laptop, playing games): hari ayah apaan? :v
me: hari ayah nasional sih katanya, di twitter pada bilang gitu. kalo ga liat juga gatau xD
dad: oh

mom: ini buku kenapa ditumpuk begini?
me: oh itu belom dibaca, dikumpulin jadi satu aja..
mom: kok quran ga ikutan ditumpuk disini? :)
me: ........ :)) udah pernah dibaca kan itu :p
/nyinyirnya nyokap duh/ xD

Hari ini finally melihat beyond Stasiun Pondok Ranji, turun di Serpong \o/ keluyuran gw jauh juga yak~

Penasaran sama debat yang heboh diomongin, ternyata debat hiburan(?) toh :)) Terus gw baca sampe kelar pula, dasar pengangguran xD

Diliat dari kontak bbm yang ga nambah, sepertinya semua invite yang gw kirim pas barengan Ulfah di IKANAS ga ada yang nyampe. Entah koneksi gw yang abal atau BBMnya u.u;;;

Ah, sepertinya kabel data X10 udah harus pensiun, udah ga bisa diselametin selotip. Masa dipake ngecas hape ga nambah baterenya. Ya emang harusnya move on(?) completely dari hape lama sih ya :"

Laper. Udah makan malem padahal-.- Yaudah ngemilin Hershey Kisses, tapi pegel juga. Yaudah tidur aja kali yak :v (ah wacana lu ce)

Ini yang baca post gw lebih pengangguran dari gw kali yak :p

Yow

Mencoba sok sibuk selama weekend, lumayan mengimprove mood \o/ Dance memang selalu menyenangkan~ Lumayan juga berhasil menghindari acara keluarga yang kata nyokap ternyata ga rame =)) Plus udah liat Helmy Yahya juga yey. Ga foto bareng sih, ga minat emang._. Ngomong-ngomong minat, I barely interested in anything, sampe nyokap ngomel. Sedang hampa(?) ga ada passion untuk ngapa-ngapain gitu. Buku-buku yang biasanya sekejap abis aja sampe numpuk begini http://t.co/MvdJf1zMsi .
Anyway lagi-lagi gw mengalami krisis berat badan. Gw ga ngapa-ngapain di rumah aja berat gw turun bzzzz. Turunnya dari awal tingkat 3 sih, efek pulang pergi mungkin (udah pernah gw bahas kayaknya). Tapi ya gitu, makin kesini makin turun, naeknya susah-_- Damn padahal selama ngekos (dari awal kuliah) itu naek loh. Sekarang angkanya kembali ke pas awal kuliah dulu. Maybe I'm happier at kosan? /diusir dari rumah/ Porsi makan gw juga menurun. Pengen balik SMA dimana gw bisa makan 5 kali sehari -.- Tapi gw makan sebanyak itu mungkin karena tingakt sibuknya berbeda sama sekarang-sekarang..
Ehya Reuni IKANAS itu 3 tahun sekali katanya. 3 tahun lagi, bisa dateng ga ya.... How do I look by that time... Semoga penempatan Jakarta deh biar bisa dateng amin! Eh terus kalo dateng ngapain yak? Kalo ga ada temen-temennya buat foto-foto(?) sih ya ngapain dateng /plak.
Eh katanya sih orang yang happy makannya lebih banyak. Yaudah gw akan mencoba lebih happy dari biasanya, ga mikir banyak-banyak lagi ah.

PS: I feel stupid, susunan ceritanya ga elaborate-.-

Kelabu

I don't know why but I feel so negative. Home alone dan mendung pula (sempet hujan sih). Thought reading will cheer me up a bit but seems it has no effect. Play my iTunes but actually nothing I'd like to listen to, not in the mood. About books, I finally managed to finish Fifty Shades of Grey. Not a happy ending yet. I don't know if I'll read the 2nd and 3rd books. It's a refreshing choice of book for me. It wasn't as bad as I thought first. Ha, seems I still judgmental towards several things. I bought two novels too when I went to bookfair, while I still have unfinished ones.

About the negativity. I feel like I'm selfish. I know it's not right but............. can't help it. I think I'm quite individualist. I feeli like I'm not a good daughter either (abis dinasehatin nyokap di telepon). Like I've ever become one, I just look like one pfftt. Sorry mom. Kadang juga suka masih suudzan(?), efek think too deep and too much. Enaknya sih ketipu aja gitu(?) atau ga mikir macem-macem terhadap niatan orang, just take it as it looks like. I also get envious and jealous easily, even to heroines in mangas and novels ha ha. Oh seriously C, maybe you really have to join personality school(?) to fix those nasty traits. Ini gw meracau apasih. Yaudah, pokoknya lagi negatif. Honestly I would like to talk to people but I don't want to affect their mood so........... udah gitu aja.

PS: #Aquarius can't help but to be drawn to the unusual, the unordinary, or the forbidden.
oh true.

Early morning

Heyho. Ended up here after going around twitter and facebook. Currently watching Juventus vs Real Madrid, kinda miss watching my first favorite club. Actually I don't know what I should write. Yesterday was a totally sleepy day. I feel somewhat lazy and sleep a lot, but my mom kinda forced me to go with her, so I sleep in the car. Once arrived home I even went to sleep earlier lol. Ugh I hate seeing Pirlo's beard, can't he shave it?-.- I'm rooting for Juve, but I think I should give credits for Casillas, he did awesome saves. Oh wait, Juve got penalty and it went in. Scored by Vidal. 42', 1-0~ I always like seeing Juve playing home. Their supporters always make white black stripes and other shapes. Half time.
Everytime my mom scolds me, she treated internet like arch enemy hahaha. Then she'll say 'Sekeliling kamu banyak setannya sih, makanya kamu males' and blaming games and internet. I'll just laugh it off :)) But she can't get mad at my dad who actually did pretty much the same like me, tch.
Ah for recent Kpop updates, I kinda excited about Trouble Maker's comeback. They pulled a sexier concept than before, even their MV rated 19+ xD. But kinda disappointed since the dance the performed isn't as sexy and as intimate like the video. Another updates is Young Saeng already enlisted to military, but he present fans with SS501 reunion before leaving. Indeed our sweet prince :")
Uh oh I'm running out idea about what to write. Hope Juventus win this match! Forza! \m/

[update]
Full Time score is 2-2, thanks to Llorente. Ohkay let's sleep again, got a plan for later.

Cirebon

I'm currently at Cirebon, attending a relative's wedding. Lagi akad nikah, terus gw ngeblog. Cacat, iya. Hem. Tapi otak lagi banyak pikiran. Too bad I can't pour it here. Terus dengerin kata-kata penghulunya dan ijab kabulnya jadi sedih. Kenapa? Gitu deh. *melancholic me strikes again*. Oh I did something stupid too. I'm just fucking annoying eh :"). Then I realized I'm being a bitch once before. But that time I apologize easily. Now the circumstances are different, well I'll just accept being ignored. My stupid fault anyway. Errrr yaudah apasih abaikan saja.

D+3

Euforianya yaudah gitu aja, pas hari H aja. Gatau kenapa yang lain mengharu biru(?) terus gw biasa aja._. Abisan berasa lulus itu ya kewajiban. Berhasil lulus yaudah, emang harusnya gitu kok. Kayak kalo orang latihan tari. Kalo salah gerakan dicerca, kalo bener ya kenapa juga dipuji, emang harusnya begitu. Terus pada ganti ava bertoga, gw lebih pengen majang yang pake kebaya hahaha. Tapi fotonya ga ada yang bagus yang di SLR pinjeman ituh. Si bokap ga ngerti makenya sepertinya. Hasil foto juga ga dicek kayaknya, apa gunanya ada layar di situ coba huft, jadilah blur semua-_- Mau ngupload juga males jadinya :v

Oh right, kemarin nonton konser 78 Youth Choir. Pertama nonton pas SMA, yang Symphony from Broadway. Terus yang kemaren temanya Untukmu Indonesiaku. Semakin bagus dari sebelumnya~ Tapi soloisnya tetep aja anak Folklore, macem Kak Gerard (xDDD) dan Kak Jeje. I don't get how they have time to practice._.  Ada anak Lego juga sih, ga kenal tapinya. Well, mayan lah untuk tiket gratisan =)) Thanks to Dimas yang entah kesambet apa lagi ga pelit~ Harusnya lo dateng ga bareng gw *pukpuk* =))

I don't get why my uncles and aunts so interested dengan abis wisuda gw mau ngapain lagi, penempatan gimana. Mau jawaban jujur? Nih: gw mau leyeh-leyeh, belajar TKD, terus nunggu penempatan. Dimana? Instansi manapun yang penting di Jakarta. Luar Jawa pun maunya Bali atau Batam. Kenapa? Biar bisa liburan hedon. Sayangnya yaudah deh jawaban macem itu disimpen aja sendiri. Ada yang nyuruh di Padang lah, duh males bet. Nanti gw nonton konser susah, ketemu temen susah. Ke Padang gw cuma mau buat liburan, bukan tinggal jangka panjang. Masalahnya yang nanya ga cuma satu, ada banyak, jadilah make jawaban diplomatis pfffttt.

Apalagi? Yaudah gitu aja.

It's tomorrow.

Well still in mood sedih gaje hem. I once read somewhere either in twitter or tumblr, happy people listen to the music while sad people listen to the lyrics. Tapi kayaknya ga applied ke gw, yang emang hobi nyari lirik lagu yang lagi didemenin. So this song is semacam lagu wajib buat lulus-lulusan. Baru tadi loh ngeh liriknya pas baca, padahal udah sering denger juga cuma tau chorus aja.

Graduation (Friends Forever) by Vitamin C

3 days left. Are you ready?

3 hari lagi menuju wisuda. Udah siap belom? Siap apa? Ya mental, fisik dan lain-lain semacem perlengkapannya. Err ya bukan itu sih sebenernya yang gw maksud. Udah siap buat memasuki dunia baru dan sendiri? Ga ada temennya lagi loh ini. Sebagian besar di daerah asal masing-masing. Satu kota pun punya kegiatan masing-masing. Ya bukannya gw deket dengan mereka juga sih. Tapi ya...... gitu deh. Ga bakal ketemu-ketemu lagi loh, kecuali nanti masuk instansi yang sama. Nanti itu, pada masih saling inget ga? Kalo sekarang-sekarang nanya 'apa kabar?' itu garing. Then the time will come when that simple question can give people hours long of conversation, catching up for not being able to meet for months or years.

Yah mau ketemu lagi atau ngga, I simply grateful to meet you. Gedung C, D, E, I, J, L, G, SC, Taman CD, Plasma, air mancur. Segala jenis kepanitiaan yang gw ikutin: Starfal, ITF, Dinamika 2013. Dekorasi, SPOMP, Peneva. Yang terakhir ini gokil lah, 'dengki' abis. Kepanitiaan tersingkat dan terkompak yang gw pernah rasain. Slayer merahnya semoga bisa gw simpen sampe tua. Sayang gw setelah itu ga pernah ngikut ngumpul, cuma nimbrung di grup wasap. Risoma IMP 2012-2013 yang gabut. Kelompok PKL, kelompok dosbing. Temen yang kenal gegara K-Pop. Temen kosan Pisokers. Kelas-kelas kuliah gw: 1-D, 2-E, 3-B. Mungkin ga selalu sesuai ekspektasi, but you guys spice up my daily college life enough.

Thank you, all.

PS: Hem padahal gw berniat ngepost melankolis abis wisuda. Tapi tau-tau udah sedih aja sih dari sekarang. Efek PMS kali ye.

PPS: Belom foto bareng sama beberapa orang tertentu........ :(

Galau konser

Yaudah sih, jelas dari judulnya. Jadi besok konser CN BLUE. Pengen nonton. Tapi ga punya tiket. Pengen festival B. Harga aslinya sejuta. Bukannya ga punya sejuta sih, tapi ga ikhlas aja ngeluarin duit segitu. Yang dulu promotor penipu aja kan gw rugi 500an. Kalopun mau nonton yang sekarang, gw gamau spent more than 500. Totalnya sejuta juga kan tuh sama yang gw rugi dulu. Malah pas Junsu dulu gw beli tiket hasil banting harga gegara kurang laku kayaknya, cuma 300. Junsu itu debut 2004, CNBLUE debut 2010. Masa gw spent more di juniornya yang belom seberapa. Kualitas suara juga beda. Eh itu bukannya Yong-Hyun ga bagus sih, beda aja, Jonghyun mayan bikin eargasm kok.
Dan pas gw ngeliat langsung mereka tadi di Kota Kasablanka bikin tambah pengen nonton aaaaaaaaa. Subhanallah ya tinggi putih cakep-cakep semuaaaaa. Outfitnya juga bagus, pas. Aduh itu Jonghyun asfshdkkflslal *speechless*. I really want to see him sing and play guitar live aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa that must be fckin sexy. Too bad foto-foto yang gw  ambil gelap n blur orz. Mereka(fans) hysterical abis n dorong-dorong banget.

Yaudah segitu aja. Jarang-jarang nih galau konser, abisan yang kesini sebelumnya ga ada yang gw demenin. Semoga gw beruntung besok.

PS: Jadi katanya di twitter ada yang ngomel cuma gegara Kak Mel bilang CNBLUE ga cakep. Yaelah bro cakep ga relatif kali, selera pribadi. Kalo cinta mah yang ga cakep juga jadi cakep-cakep aja #ea. Gw aja malah sering menghujat si kuda padahal bias utama gw. Lagian itu juga cuma idol, kayak kalo lo belain dapet sesuatu aja. Ga bakal lo nikahin juga *kecuali emang jodoh, yang mana kasus sangat langka*. Eh ini PS panjang amat yak :v

6 days left

Kalo yang lain nyetatus efbe atau ngetwit alumni, A.Md, etc gw ngeblog aja deh biar bedaan dikit /sama aja.
Yeyy selamat! *applause* Mau ngetwit yang melankolis belom lah ya, nanggung nunggu wisuda, masih perlu ke kampus juga haha.
Jekartah panash banget orz. Abis jalan rumah-kantor magangnya Ulfah-rumah dalam 40 menit. Ga cape sih, tapi panasnya itu, berasa sauna. Nyampe-nyampe keringetan from head to toe, bakal cepet2 mandi sore kayaknya.
Ohya kenapa gw ke kantornya Ulfah? Karena gw kemaren melakukan kebodohan, ninggalin kamera di kosan Dira. Yaudah deh, berhubung udah banyak yang nagih buat ngaplot foto, mau ga mau segera diambil. Ini ngetik sambil nunggu ngaplot (eh udah complete deng).
Btw sepertinya berhasil menolak ikut sekolah kepribadian muahaha. Yeah I know my personality sucks, plus kalo ngomong berantakan susunan kalimatnya. Tapi kalo ngomong English teratur kok gw grammarnya *songong bet lu ce*. I should think more before talk or act u.u;;; (eh tuh kan berantakan kalimatnya, abaikan hem).
Apalagi yak? Udah gitu aja kayaknya._.

Nothing to lose

Entah mengapa semakin mendekati yudisium dan wisuda semakin bersikap(?) seperti ini. Ini apa? Sikap 'nothing to lose' maksudnya. Ga ngerti? Gw juga ngga /lah/ yah pokoknya, cuma mau graduate without regret. Jadi ya apapun(?) diinginkan dilakuin, gitu. Sampe maybe I annoy several people? Entahlah, kalo merasa gw ganggu atau ngeselin ya bilang aja ya :v. It won't change my attitude much actually haha. Terus gimana kalo setelah yang gw lakuin malah menimbulkan penyesalan di kemudian hari? Ya masih di kemudian hari kan, daripada nyesel yang sekarang karena ga ngelakuin. Kan gatau outcomenya kalo ga dilakuin, bikin nyesel atau ngga. Anyway this nothing to lose (plus maybe a bit reckless and nuts) will only last until graduation ceremony. Wisuda maksudnya, bukan yudisium. Setelah itu gw akan berpikir lebih lama sebelum bertindak deh. Probably.

Eh nuts itu ambigu ya. Bisa kacang bisa gila. Jadi kacang = gila? Dikacangin = digilain? Cie. Lah. ABAIKAN.

Eiya udah lama post ga dilabelin.

12 days left

#np Do You Love Me? - 2NE1

Entah mengapa hari ini ngantuk banget seharian. Jam 11 tidur, otw ke bowling center tidur, pulang mampir rumah tante tidur. Terus sekarang jadi belom ngantuk-_- Saking banyaknya tidur sampe dikira sakit sama nyokap pffftt. Iyalah biasanya ga hobi tidur. About the bowling, niat awalnya mau berenang tapi dengan randomnya ga jadi malah ngebowling. Terus skill gw semacam menurun(?) saking lamanya ga main, terakhir Februari (berdasarkan check in 4sq). Cuma spear sekali dan di game kedua poin akhir cuma setengah game pertama-_- Bokap malah banyak spear n ada strike juga padahal kan sama aja jarang mainnya. Yah powernya beda sih *lemah*.

Dipikir-pikir lucu aja kepanitiaan yang super singkat dengan orang yang super banyak di satu bidangnya bisa lebih akrab dibanding kepanitiaan yang super lama dengan orang yang dikit banget di bidangnya. Well ga semuanya akrab sih, tapi lumayan gitu. Wasap gw seharian nonstop lah ngebahas apapun ga jelas. Dari dengki-dengkian sampe tentang yang agak serius macem LDRan. Gw jarang ngechat n ga pernah ikut nongkrong bareng sih, cuma mengamati aja. Tapi gw tetep bisa merasakan fun nya. Once pernah bangun tidur begitu nyalain network ada 300+ new chat, sampe ngehang hape pas loadingnya. Entah bakal berapa lama akan seperti itu. Ga perlu heboh selalu sih imo, tapi ya konstan aja kontaknya yak amin~

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Man, capek juga ngecek notif wasap isinya grup doang dedengkian gitu, (dari) yang lain kek ulala~

#np I Love You - 2NE1

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PS. Lagu di playlist youtube, shuffled :p

Future

Cieee topiknya berat amat. Anggep aja efek diceramahin nyokap dan obrolan sama Ulfah di mobil kemaren sore. So mom told me asked me what I'm gonna do in this 'nganggur' time. Because she is so 'kepo' and asking what my friends are doing (like Thya and Ulfah, well whoever she knows) and I can't lie so I explain that they are doing some sort of internship here and there. Which... resulted dengan gw diceramahin kenapa gw ga magang juga, nanti sia-sia waktunya tau-tau temen udah sukses bla bla bla. It's not like I don't understand those sorts of things duh. I don't have the will to work yet. Not in the mood. Tapi ya iya juga sih. Yudisium - wisuda - lalu apa? I don't know what I want to do untuk jangka pendek ke depannya ini. I don't know if I should cherish this super-free-time (which will be hard to get when I work for real) or working/internship opportunities. I have no confidence in my academic record, I'm sucks either at accounting or auditing (and again, I don't have enough will to refresh my memory about them yet). I want to properly learn driving and Japanese though. Then Dad said I should be able to manage well between internship and learning those, ga cuma les-les aja. But I couldn't learn them properly because I can't focus on them while studying. Iya, kalo soal belajar beginian ga bisa multi tasking-_-
In conclusion............ I still don't know hufffft.

17 days left

Hot Sunday. Super terik gerah banget. Kalo buat ngejemur cucian sih ya bagus.
Anyway besok SPT, terus gw bingung jalan jam berapa karena harus bikin rundown(?) antara hal-hal yang perlu dan ingin dilakukan. Kan ga mungkin gw nebeng2 tapi nyusahin yang ditebengin ulalalaaa. Tapi mager juga kalo berangkat dari pagi u.u;; Well, semoga atribut kuning seiprit cukup mewakili deh ah hahaha.
See you tomorrow nite~

Simple

Moodswing gw lagi parah sepertinya. Ga PMS padahal. Bentaran bisa ngakak ngescroll grup chat next bisa diem ga mood ngapa-ngapain. Maklumin aja Aquarius sih *ngeles*. Or I'm too simple minded. Err okeh gatau mau nulis apa lagi. Ohya kalo dipikir-pikir mestinya gw bisa ngikut program Jenesys J-Pop itu, kan yudisiumnya mundur. Kalo ikutan n lolos I might be in Japan right now. Yaudah lah ya, mungkin jalan gw kesana ga lewat itu :" Hafuuuuu........................

Erm lagi galau gaje sebenernya. Galau kenapa? Ya gitu deh. Ga jelas? Ya emang. Ya udah abaikan aja.
I asked too many "What If...?" in my head, padahal apapun jawabannya, affect my action or my attitude only a little.
'hahahaha' nya twitter/chat itu benar2 berbeda dengan dunia nyata *apeu*

password dinamika favorit gw (walau ga pernah jaga password):

True friends stay together, never say goodbye, and the one who walks in when the rest of the world walks out. Friends is like memory, lasts forever and never does it die.

ngambil dari buku motivasi katanya, gatau buku apa.

(still) 23 days left

Bukannya ga move on(?), tapi emang menghitung ulang. Wisuda diundur broh jadi 23 Oktober. Selama seminggu, eh 10 hari deng, sibuk gila. 8 hari Dinamika beserta persiapannya dan 2 hari kondangan sodara. Not to mention rok pinjeman yang bener-bener ga gw cuci selama 6 hari plus debut ngepantofel. Selama Dinamika ini yang tadinya males gimana gitu, jadi seru juga lama-lama. Makanan 3 kali sehari terjamin plus snack, susu dan buah. Ya gw ga makan semua sih._. Dapet kaos, topi, jaket dan slayer. Tapi topi gw kena palak miba, entah buat apa. Slayer juga kena palak sih, tapi ga gw kasih. Sayang cuuuuy. Entah mengapa di hari terakhir peneva malah jadi semacem artis. Yang minta slayer, topi, foto bareng, tanda tangan *bukan ke gw yak, gw mah biasa aja* bejibun. Dilempar satu udah semacem ngasih makan ikan, langsung pada ngerubung buat nangkep. Belom lagi surat cinta nya yang sepik2 abis. Paling laku Bona, Ellisa sama Tami. Gw cuma dua :( *sok sedih, padahal ga peduli*. Gatau ada sisanya kali, tapi kebuang hahaha. Yang anehnya yang gw dapet itu dari anak-anak yang bahkan mentornya aja gw ga kenal. Di gugus mereka aja gw cuma sekali nongol, heran kok bisa pada tau gw.............. I don't think I stand out a lot, I can't really act and did random outburst and angry. Ga kayak mereka yang emang teriak-teriak mulu haha. After Dinamika ini ada pula yang cinlok panitianya. Di peneva misalnya, R dan N *keukeuh inisial*. Terus pada rajin kongkow bareng tapi ya gw ga bisa ikutan, nasib ga ngekos u.u;;; Terus........ gw lupa cerita apa lagi. Yaudahlah yaaa segitu lumayan merangkum kegiatan seminggu ini.

Ohya I rarely listen to music this past week, tapi entah mengapa tiap ga sengaja denger lagu yang keplay adalah Marry You nya Bruno Mars sampe 3 kali seminggu. Note it's not my favorite song nor I have it in my phone/laptop. Oh dan ini bukan kode(?) untuk siapapun(?)._.

Anyway lagu Dinamika 2013 bagus, kece bet not boring at all.

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I don't know but I think I was quite crazy to do so. Err yaudah sih.

Yah mau jadi primadona maba juga percuma kalo............ :" *abaikan*

23 days left

Just finished Kuroko no Basketball anime season 1. Watch 21 episodes yesterday and the rest today. Jadi kangen main basket. Sayangnya bukan model olahraga yang kapan saja siapa saja macem futsal dan badminton :( Lalu nyari-nyari anime lain terus keinget Hetalia yang katanya sih bagus. Pas nonton kok rasanya absurd._. Terus males karena ratusan episode dan per episodenya 5 menit. Dapet rekomendasi Monogatari (entah itu apa) dan kayaknya lagi heboh-heboh Shingeki no Kyojin. Masih ongoing, tunggu kelar deh ya baru nonton.

Btw nontonin Kurobas sangat membuat gw yaoi minded mode on walau ceritanya ga yaoi. Ampun deh dialognya dan settingannya(?) kadang-kadang begitu looool. Kalimat ini "I will be the shadow to your light" itu cheesy bet, tapi itu pas Kuroko ngomong ke Kagami dan ada lanjutannya sebenernya "and make you the best (basketball) player in Japan." Tapi di scenenya, subnya muncul sepotong sepotong, kan jatohnya cheesy kalo ga tau hahahaha.

Kemalasan gw meningkat setelah sekip sekali kemaren itu. Lagi mikir apa resign aja, but I think I'll regret more if I do so. I'm the type who have to finish things I've started, walau terseok-seok entah gimana juga. Tapi rasa mager ini really hold me back-_-;;; Plusss, am so mager karena perlu ngambil routing slip di sekre which means kudu kesana pake seragam.

Jir hape tiap vibrate isinya notif pokopang doang u.u;;

I think I should revised this blog, it's just my ordinary life and there's not much of fangirl things. Well I spazz less these days. Turning to other options to fill these idle days.

Sunday noon [updated]

Harusnya sih ngebintaro tapi jam 6 pagi kudu nyampe sana dan untuk acara yang cuma sebentar, males bet. Bangun gw aja jam 7 tadi hahahaha. Terserah deh mau dibilang ga komitmen atau apa.

A really slow day, setelah malam harinya nonton dua match sekaligus dan pake ketiduran. Yah walau skornya sebelum dan sesudah gw ketiduran sama aja. Dari pagi cuma bolak balik laptop-hape, bukanya criminal case-candy crush-pokopang-candy crush-pokopang bolak balik gitu aja. Nganggur bet yak? Get a life C! haha. Eiya ini candy crush baru mulai main lagi loh, sebelumnya stuck di level 208. Terus gw abaikan, adek gw yang kadang-kadang maenin berhasil menyelesaikan level itu. Move forward!!

Ah, abis nontonin XIA 1st concert juga, abis donlot. Itu encore concert di Seoul. Terus ada cuplikan tanggal-tanggal dia konser worldwide, dan pas yang di Indonesia ga disebutin. #jleb abis, saking ga lakunya gitu ga dianggep, dilupakan? Tapi ya kalo laku mana dapet sih gw tiket diskon banting harga kayak gitu hahahaha. Ngomong-ngomong tiket, belom jadi beli tiket CN BLUE. Kayaknya salenya juga ga gitu bagus? Tunggu diskon lagi aja deh *semoga ada xD*.

29 days left - hardcovering

Laporan PKL sudah tahap finishing di tangan mas-mas fotokopian yang ngejilidin hardcover. Hopefully when I turn it in on Friday sekre will just accept it. Sampai wisuda masih ada beberapa ini dan itu yang harus dilakukan. Terus............ gw lupa mau nulis apa lagi.

Ohya, entah mengapa, di tingkat 3 ini banyak yang jadian (eh gw belom pernah bahas ini kan ya?). Ada juga sih yang putus, tapi ya banyakan yang jadian. Entah kejar tayang atau apa, ga ngerti. Tapi membuat gw susah mengajak mereka main atau gw sampahin kosannya jadinya, karena mereka akan prefer pacaran-_- Tapi yaudah sih yak :v Gw mah selow belom kepala 2, ga merasa perlu kejar tayang seperti mereka /plak

Kay bye :v
*dipanggil oleh tumpukan piring kotor*

Tiring day

Sesuatu banget, gegara ngikut yang ituan jadi panitia, sampe gw bela-belain nginep buat jogging. Ga pernah olahraga tadinya, eh kuat juga 4 puteran. Tapi kaki gw sakit jadinya-.- Besok-besok gw tawar ah, gw jogging sendiri di rumah aja. Ehya tapi setelah jogging, makan gw jadi banyakan. Gegara capek kali ya.

Adek gw nonton closing stupa, n gw melipir ke PS buat ngunjungin Kinokuniya. Ternyata lebih mahal dari Gramedia ya, paling murah itu tetep Books and Beyond (untuk urusan buku impor). Masa Inferno hargga 385k, kalo di Gramedia 360k. B&B *nyingkat seenak jidat :v* 285k kalo ga salah. Terus Cuckoo's calling di B&B cuma 200k, di Kino nyampe 300k-an. Beda cover sih. Ujung-ujungnya, akhirnya, setelah setahun, beli The Casual Vacancy. Udah softcover, diskon 10% jadi 196k. tapi entah dibaca kapan. Sebenernya buku yang pengen dibeli listnya cukup panjang. Duitnya juga ada. Tapi niat bacanya itu lagi minim-_- Laper matanya mah tetep.

Ngomong-ngomong laper mata, gw suka ga ngerti sama yang ngeliat barang bagus di etalase toko mahal, terus ujung-ujungnya jadi masuk toko buat liat-liat doang. Padahal kan ya udah jelas ga bakal beli, kenapa malah bikin ngiler diri sendiri. Tapi mungkin itu sama kayak gw masuk Kino, liat-liat doang, apalagi section Japanesenya.

35 days left and revised

Laporan gw 'akhirnya' kena revisi juga. Yang direvisi typo minor dan........ data, yang sebenernya, ga penting. Oh, sama penjelasan gw tentang PPh 25/29. Terus belom kelar. Karena rephrasing 1 paragraph is harder than writing this post :p Pas buka youtube malah nemu link stream Seoul International Drama Awards. Mayan liat Jaejoong plus Lee Soohyuk. Kirain ada Lee Jongsuk sama Kim Woobin, kan mereka lagi hot-hotnya tuh. Ah, KARA performed loh, comeback stage mereka di situ, kece beeet xDDD.

Ohya seharian kemaren ga twitteran itu....... peaceful yak. Terus ini liat twitter sekilas tau-tau ga damai tentram sentosa lagi hahaha. Kemaren main-main ke UI, niat awalnya cuma ngobrol bentar sama Jansen terus nganter Thya ngedosnil. Eh dosnilnya ngebatalin. Yaudah jadi ngobrol lama sama si abang, sampe pulang bareng. Terus ngomong-ngomongin tentang yang bisa bikin hidup seseorang sial banget.
'Mungkin itu ce yang bikin hidup lo sial' | 'Iya ti bisa jadi, sampe-sampe IP gw turun hahahaha' | 'Apa sih?'
Seems I have to keep thinking that way? =)) Biar hidup tenteraaamm~
Tapi itu termasuk beberapa hal yang lebuh mudah diomongin daripada dilakuin. Udah ngebayangin 'Okay I'll do it like this and like that' tapi pas pelaksanaannya yaudah gitu, ga sukses, ga semudah n se-smooth yang dibayangin dan direncanakan orz. Eh tapi ya mesti dilatih terus biar sukses yekan :v *iye masochist emang*

Hari ini

Overall memuaskan, kecuali kecoa itu huft-.- Then I realize several bad traits yang perlu... dikurangi maybe dalam daily life.
1. Looking lowly at people, iya kadang-kadang masih suka begitu-.-
2. Narik kesimpulan sendiri, yang kadang ya mungkin aja gwnya yang terlalu parno atau negative thinking
3. Kepo hal-hal yang tidak perlu, ya misal lagi ngepoin orang, terus nemu twitternya orang lain lagi, yang bionya ada nama ceweknya/cowoknya terus ngepoin si pacarnya tersebut dst. Atau ngepoin link atau foto yang ditweet orang, beberapa kali malah dapet gambar horor siaaaal-_-

Ohya, alhamdulillah banget dapet dosbing macem Pak Benny, no revisi sama sekali dari mulai ngerjain laporan sampe dinilai. Nilai juga terjamin, makasih pak love you dah :* hahahaha. Tinggal si Ibu dosnil 2, semoga sebaik bapaknya.

Setiap di depan rumah buat buka/tutup pager, pasti liat ke atas nyari bintang. Sok unyu banget gw hoek, tapi udah jadi habit dari entah kapan.
Ohya sepertinya gw jadi peneva beneran? Interviewnya rada.... gaje? ._.

Yaudah, gw ngantuk, capek banget, oyasumi

40 days left

That is, until graduation ceremony. Part of me want to get over it quickly, the other part want to rewind the time. Nah, I don't really wish for the time to stand still, it's boring. Semacam ingin segera menyudahi segala yang berurusan dengan kampus dan Bintaro. Clear everything up, put in a box and lock it in storeroom. Tapi juga ingin mengulang beberapa masa, yah bukan indah sih, tapi cukup menyenangkan. There are photos to do that anyway, look at them and they will bring you the memories. Tapi ya maunya cepet-cepet kelar semua-semua (yeah I'm so fickle).

Nah gegara mood wisuda(?) yang melanda, jadilah beberapa hari terakhir ini ngeplay lagu AKB48 yang Sakura no Hanabiratachi. Sedih gitu, emang wisuda banget lagunya haha. Mau udah karaokean pake lagu itu tetep aja ga puas. Tapi mungkin efek abis teteran juga, jadinya muter lagu AKB48 mulu. tetp favorit yang Beginner~

Masalah(?)

Masalah-masalah hari ini adalah:

1. Ngantuk, pengen tidur, tapi gerah. Ga bisa tidur. Padahal di kereta tadi nyaris ketiduran-.-

2. Rok yang....... kelonggaran. Iya gw kurusan, tapi ini bukan pamer. Malah frustrasi. Karena artinya rok gw yang pas cuma tinggal 2. Si rok yang kelonggaran ini sebelumnya udah dikecilin loh ukurannya. Gw butuh nambah berat, tapi malah ngurang mulu hafuuuuuu-_-

3. Sepatu gw yang alas bagian dalemnya udah lepas. Ini bukan masalah baru hari ini sih, udah kemaren-kemaren. Tapi yaudah-sih gitu. Tapi kalo dipikir-pikir tahun ini entah udah berapa sepatu yang gw 'abisin'. Mostly solnya lepas lemnya gitu. Terus tiap yang gw ceritain pasti bilangnya 'itu sih salah elonya-.-'. Ya mungkin aja sih, tapi rasanya gw jalan normal-normal aja........ ya kecuali speednya :v Tapi normal ah jalan gw..... Btw, ini sepatu baru gw beli sehari sebelom PKL, yang artinya umurnya baru dua bulan lalala~

Ikhlas

Akhir-akhir ini gw rasanya harus mengikhlaskan beberapa hal. Yang diceritain disini satu aja lah ya. Salah satunya adalah.... chance ke Jepang. Sengaja ini baru gw post sekarang, nunggu batas waktu daftarnya abis. Jadi, Kedubes Jepang mengadakan program untuk peminat Anime/Fashion/Entertainment (J-pop culture, basically) untuk mengadakan kunjungan. I was really thrilled and excited waktu baca. Apalagi cara ngeapplynya lumayan gampang, tinggal email form n foto plus link video yang menjelaskan minat gw terhadap J-Pop. Tapi pas liat tanggal kunjungannya, langsung patah hati </3 . Tanggal 30 September - 9 Oktober. Pas banget sama yudisium, 30 September - 4 Oktober. Gw ga ada masalah dengan batal ikut SPT dan/atau wisuda gegara ke Jepang. Tapi kalo gw batal lulus...... ya itu persoalan. I can't possibly waste what I've done for 3 years for 2 weeks. Sempet mikir gimana kalo apply dulu, kalo keterima baru deh izin sekre blablabla. Tapi ya biasanya mereka rada rese kan. Plus ini ga related sama major juga, cukup yakin ini akan dianggap hura-hura (yeah, I'm pessimist). Yaudah, ikhlaskan deh. Cuma bisa doain Dimas lolos biar gw bisa nitip CD Arashi (honestly Dim, your vid a bit lame-_-). Ikhlas......... Pengen nangis sih, tapi ya mau gimana. When there's a will, there's a way. Mungkin chance gw buat kesana bukan lewat ini, harus cari jalan lain. Ah tapi........ yaudah lah ya ceeeee.

Akhir-akhir ini semakin ngebet ke Jepang karena beberapa temen yang gw kenal pergi kesana, berkaitan sama studinya di fakultas masing-masing. Iya, biasa deh gw jeles envy gitu towards them. Well, going to Japan has been my dream since I don't know when, so everytime I heard someone went there, I wonder 'kapan waktunya gw yang kesana......?'

Trashing

Entah kenapa akhir-akhir ini jadi males nyampah di twitter. Probably because there are several people's whose tweets I don't want to see. Ya mereka ga ada salah sih sama gw, tweet2nya juga. Gwnya aja yang errrr....... gitu u.u;; Yaudah nyampahnya disini. Udah 3 hari yak, eh 4 sama hari ini, nyampah disini. Ga (tau) ada yang baca juga kan. Well yeah keep it anonymous pembaca. And keep apapun yang dibaca for yourself ;)

JAKARTA PANAS BENJETS YA ALLAH. Kalo kata yang di twitter sih hasil join forces para pawang hujan kondangan dan konser Metallica. Ohya have fun ya bagi yang nonton!

Ah, gw mau minta maaf sama yang menyuruh gw tutup mulut soal dia nonton teater. I can't help it. Tapi ya jangan boong juga sih ya ke ceweknya, kasian itu diboongin. Terus buat ceweknya juga jangan diambekin atau dibetein kalo dia bilang mau teateran, tenang aja he loves you more kok kiwww. Jeles boleh tapi ya kalem aja, lagian ga bakal dapet member JKT48 juga sih yak. Ehya tapi itu my point of view sih as a girl (cie) and as a fan. Terus tetep ga ngerti kenapa pada curhatnya ke gw, I don't think I'm qualified to give you advice u.u;;

JKT48 Theater

Kemaren abis nonton itu sama Tia. Ga, gw bukan wota. Ya terserah mau ngatain wota juga, gw kemaren nonton cuma karena penasaran kok. Tia sih yang penasaran banget, lalu emang dasarnya gw sering melakukan hal impulsif, diajakin yaudah ayok. Lalu bertemu 3 STANers lainnya dong hahaha. Gausah sebut nama lah ya, mengingat orangnya minta dirahasiakan kedatangannya karena takut ketauan pacarnya =))

Awalnya ikut undian tiket, kalah. Yaudah beli tiketnya waiting list. Yang cewek diprioritasin gitu fufufu jadi pasti masuk lah yak. Tapi berdiri dapetnya-.- daaan bayarnya tetep 100ribu, ga diskon jadi 50ribu-.- Kemaren itu hari terhedon abis sumpah, mepet gitu sisa duitnya pffft. Yaudah begitu masuk, kelar semua masuk, dan mereka tampil. Yang emang bisa nyanyi(?) ya nyanyinya live, yang laen...... I don't know, sounds lipsync? Tapi ya lipsyncnya juga bagus, pas sama liriknya kok~ Terus akhirnya gw mulai agak mengenali member-member lainnya haha. Tadinya cuma afal tampang Melody, Rena, Nabilah. Shania (aka Shanju) yang sering diomongin Dimas pun gw ga afal tampangnya (tadinya). Terus gw merhatiin kan, Shanju itu tinggi yak, seumur adek gw padahal. Tapi tingginya se-gw (kalo di profile onlinenya), entah udah nambah apa belom. Oh plus yang nampil itu gen-1, jadinya nama-nama yang tadinya gw tau nama doang, jadi tau namanya. Terus mereka somewhat koplak jayus garing gitu pas bagian talknya, quite fun to watch lah~ Ada member .. Rica namanya kalo ga salah. Ngomongin A-chan nya Perfume dan Chocolate Disco. Gw sih ngerti, walau gw ga inget juga member Perfume siapa aja. Tapi yang laennya itu.... ga ngerti kayaknya? pfffft. Salah tempat mbak, itu pada doyannya 48 doang, kayaknya jarang (atau ga ada) yang ngerti Perfume. Dari satu setlist Aturan Anti Cinta (aslinya Renai Kinshi Jourei), gw cuma tau lagu encore terakhir: Oogoe Diamond. Itu loh yang iklan provider itu hahaha. Peace ya mbak-mbak adek-adek, tapi kalian oke kok improvenya dari jaman nonton AKB48 x JKT48 dulu. Terus pas high-touch kan gw menyampaikan salamnya Dimas buat Shanju, eh orangnya diem ngeliatin entah kenapa. Tenang dek gw cuma temennya kok hahahaha.

Ini entah mengapa gw jadi pengen membuat Shanju jadi oshi juga(?). Abisan kan gw merhatiin dia terus di panggung, dari beberapa angle sekilas kayak Jiyoung (KARA). Kadang ekspresifnya juga mirip. Err tapi ada yang suaranya bagus macem... siapa yak namanya? Stella yak? apa Jeje? *udah ga afal lagi* haha, itu juga keren. Yah tapi kayaknya kalo diajak nonton lagi............ pake mikir deh, ga impulsif lagi :))

Sendirian

Enggak, gw ga mau ngeluh kesepian apa gimana. Biasa aja kok sebenernya, dari jaman SD juga udah sering main atau ngapain sendirian. Terus ga ngerti aja, kenapa di college ini, kalo gw sendirian aja pasti orang-orang nanya "kok sendirian aja?". Well are you always seeing ne with someone? Nope right? Ya mungkin caranya basa basi sih. Tapi buat gw sekedar hai halo juga no problem. Karena setiap ada yang nanya rasanya pengen gw jawab aja gitu. Seakan kayak masalah banget gw sendirian. Padahal jadi lebih fleksibel, mau melakukan hal impulsif juga gampang hahaha. Yaudah ga penting juga gw nulis ginian, cuma wasting time lagi nungguin Tia aja. Iya, sendirian, as usual.

The Great Gatsby [warning: spoiler]

Akhirnya nonton juga. Waktu filmnya masih di bioskop batal nonton gegara mager xD Tapi ada untungnya juga ga jadi nonton di bioskop, I can cry loudly at the end hahaha. It's a sad life of him. Jay Gatsby, I mean. He worked his ass off, being very rich, all for Daisy. But she couldn't wait for him, and married Tom instead. When Jay and Daisy met again, he asked her to leave Tom and be with him. I was like "Yeah just go with Jay! Tom got other mistress too anyway!" But after that incident, she ran away with Tom, left innocent Jay who's accused with hit-and-run while it was actually Daisy was driving! The husband of the victim shot Jay who's still waiting for Daisy's call, ready to run away with her. His last word was "Daisy" but when Nick called her, the servant rejects his call, telling they already went away. And none of the guests who came to Gatsby's party attend his funeral. All he had, and know the truth of him, was Nick.

Soooo the moral value(?) is, just like Nick said: You can't repeat the past. Jay is really hopeful about Daisy, even when she left him already. Poor guy :"( Oh and another moral value is, no matter how big your house or how much money you got, it means nothing if you have no one to share them with. Even Jay said that he actually feel empty, and he really hoped that Daisy could fill it, since all he planned for his life is with her. It's somewhat struck me, for lately I was thinking that all of the things I do is for myself sake, as long as I don't harm other people. If I got glory, that's for myself, I enjoy it most. Other people enjoying it just bonus, side effect. Seems I have to revise this mindset. If I got glory, I'll find a way to share it. Oh right, another value: I don't want to live in such a big mansion. Well I do want it, but it's not safe. I mean how can someone carrying a gun enter freely into the house? Why no one knows his presence? Must be because the house is too big right? Though it was a really awesome house, got private dock and beach.

Ermmmm

still lack 12 pages for report, tapi dimana niat ngetiknya? huft.
bengong2 terus jadi mikir, talent gw apa ya? nulis? bukan kayaknya. sesering apapun gw nulis apapun, mau diary, blog, puisi(?) tetep aja kalo dapet tugas/ujian ngessay ya bingung. kayak laporan ini nih, susah elaborate nya. gambar atau desain? i learn(ed) to draw well, bukan bakat alami. sekarang udah jarang banget ngegambar arau ngedesain, idenya sering mentok kayak nulis. nyanyi? beuh, jeleknya suara ngelebihin fals *lebay* ya not good lah. dance? err i need a long time to memorize the moves dan ga fleksibel banget badan gw. belajar kara yang lupin aja dua minggu-_- padahal ga susah. bahasa asing? itu mah belajar yak. apalagi dong yang bisa disebut talent? alat musik? olahraga? ngek bzzz heeem.

yah mau apapun itu, semoga terdiscovered nanti tepat waktu. sekarang mah learn to be better in every aspect ajah, sambil nyoba2 hal baru 0:) *ini gw kesambet apa sok bijak gini*

die

...harusnya, tapi kok ya gw woles ya HAHA.
jadiiii besok adalah deadline ngumpulin laporan ke dosen by email. tapi ya gw belom kelar. boro2 proporsional beuh-_- yang baru kelar bab 1, bab 2 A, bab 3A ajah. jengjengjeng!!!!! terus masih sempet gitu ya gw ngeblog? ulalala i need to unleash this stress, i dont know what to write there-.- di otak gw sih bisa kebayang apa yang harusnya ditulis, tapi gw ga bisa merangkai kata-katanya. terus tadi youtube-ing malah nemu lagi davichi yang belom pernah gw denger, yaudah nonton mvnya dulu. daaaan ternyata lagunya galau gitu sial mood gw kebawa ga penting abis-.- tapi enak kok lagunya, lagu mereka sih selalu enak~
BACK TO LAPORAN WEH!
anyway kalo ada yang mau ngerjain laporan gw, kalo cewek gw jadiin sodara, kalo cowok dijadiin suami *yekali, dikata sayembar dongeng2* ABAIKAN

belom kelar oh oh oh e oh, oh oh e oh *joget i got a boy snsd*
tadi sempet nonton mv nya sweet sorrow yang judulnya jus get away (you deserve it) terus jadi pegen get away dari laporan beneran /plak/

oh ya siapapun yang baca post gaje inih, tengkyu, dan semangatin gw, doain gw, apapun lah biar laporan kelar dan cetar. *siapa elu ce? siapa juga yang mau baca*

If only I could get drunk just to forget everything for awhile....... Thinking too much and too deep is exhausting.

PKL

Jadi udah kelar PKL selama 25 hari yey! Ga yey juga sih, lebih demen PKL daripada harus ngadepin laporan, bingung nulisnya gimana hikssss. Awalnya sih bosen, behind the desk routines don't suit me much. tapi lama2 asik juga. Pegawainya seru-seru(?) walau nyaris ga ada yang kece. (cuma nemu satu, dan gatau nama si masnya ga pernah satu seksi hahahaha) Terus ditambah 3 hari pula, gegara pak kepala kantor minta bantuan tugas dari pusat yang deadlinenya mepet. Eh ternyata kerjaan 3 hari itu kelar dalam 3 jam sajah~
Next ambil uang saku PKL deh (hello money~ /plak).
Selama PKL, kelar 3 drama cuy. Yamada Taro Monogatari (ninooooo xD), Nail Shop Paris (gyuri eonni is beautifully handsome!) dan terakhir I Hear Your Voice. Eh IHYV ini belom kelar sih, 2 episode tersisa, masih ongoing. Tokoh utamanya Lee Jong Suk as Park Soo Ha. Naahhh gegara ini drama jadi (lagi) demen banget sama dia kyaaaaaa xD Padahal udah tau Lee Jongsuk dari jaman dia di Running Man (lupa ep berapa, guest bareng lee Jonghyun, Kim Woobin n Kim Sooro) pas School 2013 lagi booming. Ya mungkin karena di RM efek ada Jonghyun nya jadi ga terlalu merhatiin, cuma tau oh-cakep-yaudah. Terus iseng youtube-ing video2nya Jongsuk. Eh nemu yang buat Ceci magazine. Baru tau banget pronounciation 'Ceci' itu kayak nama gw (se-si). Kenapa bisa tau? Karena di akhir video Jongsuk nya bilang 'I love Ceci' KYAAAA berasa BUAT GW!!!! HAHAHAHAHAHA *kumat*
(update: this is the so-called cideo HAHA)

yaudah gitu aja. doakan semoga nulis laporan selancar nulis postingan gaje macem gini di blog :"
DEADLINE: 15 AGUSTUS!

100 facts of me

Let's see if I can fill the whole list.

1. I have one younger sister
2. An Aquarian
3. Never have a boyfriend (yeah, for real. I don't think it's something embarassing)
4. Always wish to have cheetah as a pet
5. If I can't have it as pet, I would like to reincarnated as one in my next life (if such thing exists)
6. I-hate-cockroach
7. I dislike vegetables
8. I read a lot. Though lately what I've been reading is just my twitter timeline.
9. I draw a lot. Manga style, usually.
10. I love to sing along to songs I know.
11. I want to be a fashion designer.
12. But I don't think design is my passion, somehow I don't know what my true passion is.
13. I like to watch soccer. Juventus and Chelsea. forza Italia!
14. I used to like F1, when Kimi was still with Ferrari.
15. I like sport cars, Fast Furious effect.
16. I like being unique and different than other people.
17. I like to watch Victoria's Secret Fashion Show
18. My favorite VS angel is Candice Swanepoel
19. Judgemental, sometimes. Trying hard to decrease it.
20. I read people, making my own assumptions about them, influenced by Sherlock Holmes. Not as accurate as him  of course.
21. I don't like exposing myself. Though this post expose me a lot lol.
22. I always wanna try to run from home. But then I realize I'll have trouble for things to eat and place to sleep.
23. Sometimes when I see my wrist, I want to suicide by slitting it. But too scared of the pain I'll get.
24. I am Arashi and SS501 fan. I don't dare to call myself a CN Blue fan because I don't update much about them.

I give up, too lazy to write haha.
And too lazy to change the title :b

10 days

Sudah PKL selama 10 hari kerja. Selama itu udah ngeliat berbagai SPT. Bahkan dari ribuan itu bisa aja SPT nya om gw nyampe ke tangan gw, yang mana langsung dikepoin. Udah liat STP dan berbagai jenis SKP. Udah bikin kesalahan-kesalahan kecil pas ngerjain tugas. Yang jelas sih, udah nyemil macem-macem :9 hahaha. Awalnya karena agak gabut jadi berasa bosen. Tapi karena lama-lama kerjaan gw mulai jelas, lumayan seru juga. Ah, lumayan bikin capek mata sih, karena ngeliat ke monitor terus. Padahal di rumah juga sama aja (liatin layar laptop juga), tapi beda lah rasanya. Di hari terakhir di seksi pelayanan, ditraktir sarapan sama Pak Kepala Seksi. Menunya adalah: Nasi Bogana. Apaan tuh? Sama, gw juga gatau, itu pertama kalinya tau dan makan. Dibungkus daun pisang gitu. Rasanya sih mirip nasi uduk, dilengkapi dengan berbagai lauk yang mirip lauknya nasi uduk juga. Terus warna nasinya ijo :o. Gugel punya gugel, ternyata nasi bogana itu makanan khas Tegal, Jawa Tengah. Dan umumnya sih nasinya putih aja, ga ijo. Mmm yang gw makan spesial mungkin *halah* (terus kok rasanya ini berasa seperti blog kuliner...... /yaudahsih)

Di hari ke-11 nanti, rencananya sih masuk seksi ekstensifikasi. Tapi Ulfah udah ngerjain most of the tasks. Mungkin gw akan santai haha. Di pelayanan kerja banget. Tapi mending sih daripada gabut, mati gaya dong gw.-. Well, look forward tomorrow~ Semoga di seksi yang baru nanti banyak cemilan juga. Atau mungkin gw akan nongol ke pelayanan cuma buat nyemil /plak.

Self-centered

Dunno why but got this feeling last night. My hang-out friends now have their own(?) partner, makes us no longer hanging out together. Makes me feel being left haha. When I think a bit more, I know I'll be like them if I'm in their position. So I hate myself to have such thought/feeling.

#udahgituaja._.

Faith

I had(?) a cousin. She is way older than me, 30 something or so. Petite body, white skin, pretty, and smart too. She has high position in her job. She was dating a man, unemployed. My cousin was Moslem and her boyfriend is Christian. She was scolded by her family, they told her to break up with him. Then she acted like she broke up already........ while actually she didn't. She kept dating him secretly. Earlier this year, she asked her father to be allowed to marry him. Of course, her father gave a big no. Then she ran away from her home. After 2 weeks... (or a month, I didn't remember) she returned, bringing her boyfriend, and sungkem with her father. At that moment, coincidentally her uncles were also there. He asked her why she did sungkem with her dad and what's her religion. She answered Christian. Then it's revealed that they married and she changed her faith already. Immediately, her uncle declared she was no longer part of the family, not allowed to visit her mother's tomb and chased her out. She left, voluntarily, not bringing any of her things, without any expression.

So......... basically that story was a prologue to my opinion towards this matter. Religion is something sensitive right? It affects your life, wholly. In my view, she prepared this for a long time. 'No expression' means she is resolved, and she's not going to show any weakness by crying. She already predicted about what's going to happened and prepared her heart. I pity her father of course. But I pity her too. I feel sad because I lost a family. But I think your choice of faith is part of human rights. It's even protected by the law and it's on Undang-Undang Dasar. Traditionally, your religion is something which go down from your ancestors. through generation in your family. So, if someone change his/her faith, it's almost sure that they will be exiled by their family.

Me? Well, I'm not interested in changing mine. Though I can't say that I'm a good Moslem (heck I even want to try those vodka, martini and their friends! Controlling myself not to is quite an effort), I did my best... well okay not my best yet, to follow all the do's and don'ts. I don't know which religion is right, since each of them definitely say "I'm the right one". But since I don't understand well about my current religion, I can't judge "it doesn't suit me" or "other religion is better". I don't understand what's in front of me yet, so I don't have the confidence to reach other things and learn about them thoroughly. Oh I know a little about Christian, Catholic (and major difference between both), Buddha and Hindu. I have good friends from each one (bless my highschool and my classmates there). Even so, we live in harmony. Sometimes they reminds me to pray hahaha. Even Thya once asked me when will I wear hijab since my other friends are starting to wear it (speechless).

Well whatever yours is, do your best to follow it, respect others' and the choices they make.
Don't forget, always keep the faith!
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(I sound like a Cassie haha)



(PS: actually want to write this since months ago)

GPA

The things I feared the most are:
1. God
2. Cockroach
3. Bad score
Well yeah I got that 'Hermione-trait' a bit. My GPA is off target, way too low than what I expected. I know I'm not that smart nor dilligent. But this term GPA is way too low for my standard. Can I cry? No? Too late, cried already pffffttt.
Call me drama queen or whatever but this is my 2nd time crying over my bad score. ARGH I HATE MYSELF T.T
dammit my inferiority complex strikes shiiiiiittt

[updated]Currently

1. addicted to:
-Love Somebody by Maroon 5, since last week. First when Adam and his band performed it in The Voice
-Gara-gara Kahitna by Project Pop, ga addict banget sih, tapi radio lagi sering muter lagu itu yaudah demen aja dengernya. tapi emang gw lumayan demen lagu-lagu mereka sih, catchy lyrics
-playing Candy Crush Saga, pertama di fb, sekarang sampe donlot yang di hape, padahal levelnya sama aja
-Gag Concert, omg they are sooo funny!! Four Men and The Animals are my favorite. Discoveries in Life become more interesting since Kim Giri and Shin Bora are dating.
-The Voice S4, too bad my favorite in Team Usher was eliminated already (Josiah!). Really like Adam Levine's weirdness and Usher's eye-smile there.

2. ngerjain outline, or I suppose to work on it. tapi.....niatnya.....-_-

3. mager (eh itu mah selalu ya)

4. haven't watch The Great Gatsby. dan akhirnya nonton Fast and Furious 6.

Last Morning of May (of this year)

I don't know what to write but seems like there's so much in my head.

21 days left till PKL. June, July, August then graduation.

Dunno how many times I've felt like this but: time flies fast.

"If you're thinking to stop, think again the reason why you've been going so far."

I might fall into hell, I've done this one of seven deadly sins too much: envy.

Should be more grateful to God.

But I do envy those shoujo manga heroines, they are all courageous (hey seems I've write this before)

"Unrequited love is tiring, but love needs no reason." but this quote can't relate to the one above eh?

'kay thanks (for reading, if there's any) bye~

Heyho

Blog ini jadi lebih kayak catatan harian yak, bukan fangirl's blog. Eh tapi gw tetep fangirl kok._.
Saat ini gw ada di kosan Ulfah, nginep. Kenapa nginep? Ga kenapa-kenapa sih. Tadinya mau pergi LDK IMP ke Puncak, berangkat Rabu 00.00 , pulang Kamis 18.00. But suddenly, koordinator dosbing gw bilang dosbingnya minta ketemu Kamis, nyamper ke KPP. After a moment of hesitation (ga a moment juga sih), plus dikasih saran sama Dite, I decide to not going to Puncak. Terus bawaannya yang baju dll gitu? Nah itu, feels like so wasted. Yaudah deh dengan sedikit ngeles ke nyokap, akhirnya diperbolehkan nginep fufufu. Sebenernya gw masih bisa pulang semalem itu, tapi mager, plus ya itu, baju-baju seransel berasa sia-sia. Nginep kan jadi kepake bajunya lalala~
Also I'll meet my new friends yang sebapak dosbing this 10AM. Semoga anaknya asik-asik lah ya.

Another thing, semalem Triple S are sooooooo happy because we can see that Kyujong, Hyungjun and Jungmin are together XDD all of them tweeted the photo they took together. HyunSaeng are busy, too bad :|

Morning

I started today with a wrong move: I over think about something that shouldn't be thought about. Okay, whatever. It's day 4 of holiday? Well, no, stand-by time (?) to be precise. I already ran out of option about what should I do. But this laptop finally will be re-installed, yay! I can watch movies and videos and play games again after that. Then mom said that me and my sis should learn to cook, since we have so much free time. Hmm I'll consider it.
Anyway I recently watched Star Trek: Into the Darkness. AWESOME! At first, I watched only to see Benedict Cumberbatch. Me and my friend went 'kyaaaaa' silently when his voice first appeared. It's the first time I watched a Hollywood movie because of the actor, not its story line. Though Benedict Cumberbatch acted as the villain, he's just evilly cool. Of course, he's defeated by the protagonist and that's how film ended. Nice story line, really. Next movie to watch is Fast and Furious 6! I've been watching this since the first installment but never got bored of it. Those speeding sport cars are sexy hahaha.
I would like to add more random things. Somehow lately my male friends has been telling me their love problems. Guys, sorry but I think I am unqualified to give you any advice. But hope you find your right one and invite me to your wedding lah ;)
'Kay bye!

Dreams

Lately, tidur gw selalu ada mimpinya. And weirdly, I can remember that dream. Well, those dreams were absurd enough to remember.
1. Mimpi lagi makan daging, eh  gigi rontok semua tapi bisa ditempel lagi.
2. Mimpi makan daging kelinci yang mana dipanggang gitu. Kelincinya putih, masih utuh tubuhnya dan masih ada bulunya. Kalo di real life, gw ga bakal makan kelinci, gegara kasian n kebayang kelinci kan unyu gitu....
3. Mimpi nyari-nyari atm BNI di sebuah mall gara2 gw udah telanjur mesen sesuatu sama temen SMA gw (orangnya nongol di mimpi). Terus gw harus bayar dia cash tapi not enough money in my wallet. Yang konyolnya pas mencet turun di lift malah lantainya yang turun. Padahal pas naik ke atas pake lift ya liftnya yang gerak.
Those are my weird dreams lately. Semoga aja itu tanda-tanda UAS gw akan sukses /ganyambung/ amin!

Last class

Kuliah terakhir gw di STAN adalah Pajak Internasional, oleh dosen legendarisnya anak pajak: Mr. R, di J102. And that room, seems would be my last classroom in D3, because it's also my last exam's room. Pas mendekati akhir kuliah itu, gw tau-tau inget, kalo ruang kelas yang pertama kali gw masukin (bukan pas daftar ulang yak) itu E104. Perkenalan sama anak-anak, dimana yang cowok masih pada botak and that makes me so hard to remember their names. Terus pas jalan pulang ke angkot, tau-tau ya keinget gitu aja selama 3 tahun terakhir ini. I even walk slowly and just feel like crying. Even when writing this I feel like crying hahahaha. Okay back to topic.

This past three years I learnt a lot. Kuliah dan life lesson. I have fun a lot. Too much maybe lol. I still remember my 17th and 18th birthday. Pas awal masuk pada kaget pas tau gw 1994 birth. Komennya "Demi apa lo bahkan belom 17?!?" Terus komen orang sekarang adalah "Demi apa lo belom 20?!?" haha. 

Dinamika. 

Ga ngikutin, gegara males. Ngerasa cuma dikerjain dan disuruh ngerjain things unrelated to perkuliahan, dan ospek FKG itu masih jauh lebih nyeremin dan hal-hal yang disuruh dikerjain itu berguna. Terus nangis di malem pertama ngekos, gegara ditelpon nenek gw. Seriusan. Oh don't laugh at me.

Tingkat 1. (1-D)

Nilai UTS pertama gw, Pengantar Akuntansi. 88. Keren kan? Tapi setelah itu, accounting was really hard, I never reach that score again-_-. 17th birthday, traktir beberapa orang yang cees di kelas sama gw di PH (sponsored by my mom definitely) Traktir anak kosan juga. Pergi ke WS, SS, badminton, nonton futsal. Awal dimana Thya ngira Yogi cowok gw cuma gegara didatengin ke kosan pas mau hedon bareng anak kelas-.- (Things clarified, we're not and never date each other hahahaha). Di semester 2 nya ada makrab, ke Puncak. Kesana nyusul dianter bokap gegara gw ada les Jepang paginya. Pas tingkat 1 sempet mikir "These things, will go by quickly, and then we'll be on our senior year in just a blink." Ya emang cepet banget ya.......

Tingkat 2. (2-E)

Pertamanya sih mikir, kenapa sekelas sama mereka. Kok kayaknya seruan tingkat sebelumnya... (biasa sindrom kelas baru). Untungnya sih sekelas sama Yogi dan Irvan, temen segeng (?) ngehedon. Jadinya yaudah asik asik aja. Eh malah anak kelas ini lebih kongkow dan hedon dari kelas sebelomnya. Nonton dan karaokean bisa sebulan sekali hahaha. Nongkrong di lawson lah, sevel lah, nongkrong n ngegosip pokoknya. Eiya, masih inget pas Yogi kepilih jadi ketua kelas malah gw ketawain, really not sure kelas bakal berjalan lancar. Tapi ya ternyata lancar aja, makrab pun juga oke aja. Ke Anyer. Walau vilanya rada errrrr...... ya asik lah tetep. Gw keukeuh minta bus AC haha maap ye, bisa mabok gw kalo jalan kayak gitu tapi ga AC/ Tingkat dua ini dimana game truth or truth merajalela, menumbuhkan bibit gosip dan kepo di dalam tiap anggotanya (plis ce kesambet apa bahasa lebay gitu). Ada yang cinlok pula (cieee IndRio). Terus di akhir semester 4 jadi agak aktif gitu, ngikut Starfal jadi sie dekor (close recruitment sih gegara Vindy a.k.a Menye) dan daftar IMP n ITF. I can say that my sophomore year is my peak.

Tingkat 3. (3-B)

Nah dari sini mulai pulang pergi. Gara-gara kosan kebakaran. terus nyari kosan yang bisa ber8 lagi ga nemu. Yaudah deh, males, pulang pergi aja sekalian. Awalnya sih capek banget, apalagi kalo di hari itu ada Komputer Audit. Udah kuliah sampe sore, ada rapat, bawa-bawa laptop pula. Makes my moody self even worse, sorry for the victims. Tapi lama-lama ya enjoy aja lah. Terus sindrom kelas barunya beneran jadi nyata. Anak-anak kelas....... asik sih, individually. Tapi ya gitu. Ga kompak-kompak amat. Ga hedon dan nongkrong banget kayak pas tingkat 2. Ujung-ujungnya kalo ngehedon ya perginya sama anak 2E lagi, atau nimbrungin kelasnya Thya, atau sama Menye. Tapi paling banyak photo session ya tingkat 3 ini. Foto BA sama foto buku pak Yosep. Bahkan pas foto buku pak Yosep sampe dimake-upin dan dicatokin marcha dan minjem wedgesnya Thya yang 11cm. Tapi hasil fotonya gw dibilang kayak emak-emak sama Frans-_- Ohya gw sampe ikutan bikin kaos futsal kelas, gegara pas tingkat2 sebelumnya ga ada barang kelas gitu. Makrab pun ga jadi. Semoga aja ini quality time setelah UASnya jadi. Di tingkat 3 ini juga sibuk ITF, walau gw rada gabut....... Cerita lengkapnya silahkan kepoin post gw sebelum2nya. 

Life lesson.

Ya organisasi. Gimana rasanya mengurus sesuatu itu... ya begitulah. Terus relationship with other people. Gimana sabar tiap kali roaming orang ngobrol pake bahasa daerah, ketawa-ketawa sendiri. Pengen tau tapi ga ngerti-.-;; Gimana cara ngeinterview orang (Ibu Widya Novita), ngomong sama stranger pas nyesponsorship... Ngegosip... Prejudices. Jealousy. Envy. I even fell in love twice haha. Or was the first one crush only? Dunno, it was more than 4 months clearly. Yeah right there, I can hear your "cieeee". Oh don't ask me for details now. Ask me 10 years later, then I'll tell you gladly while laughing it off. If you feel surprised, better not. I'm introvert whose trying to be more open via this blog. So I really do not tell anyone about what I feel. Kepo me if you want, you'll get nothing anyway and I won't speak up. Kalo temen-temen gw ada yang jadian, putus, diPHP, ngePHP, ditolak, dipedekatein, womanizer, etc laaah. Oh weelllll I learn a lot. 

Yah begitulah kehidupan selama 3 tingkat di STAN. Belom lulus kok, belom UAS, CB, PKL, Laporan PKL, Yudisium. Lalu dirayakan di SPT dan Wisuda. Untuk dua itu gw mau tampil cetar rawr so that my friends won't forget me easily haha. Wait for it!

PS: (ignore this-.-) If anyone who knows me and I know you too, and you'd like to..... comment(?) my blog directly to me, feel free to do so. Ga bakal gw teriakin 'kepo lu!' kok. Eh bakal gw teriakin gitu sih, tapi ya cuma iseng aja :v Whatever I posted is public anyway~ 

One day left

I just got my usual text message about my class schedule. Turns out that I only have one day left to study in a classroom. After that, I'll only have exams, practical work, and report. Somehow, I feel like crying. Really. Dunno why...... I'm just....... touched? Or feel relieved? Nope, not those. A feeling that said "Now it has come to this". Such kind of feeling. Whatever, I can't even explain it. I just want to cry, with a smile :')
Will post more later, currently focusing on watching The Voice (#TeamUsher!) and it's almost time for MU vs Chelsea~! (#KTBFFH!)

Indonesian Tax Festival 2013

Preliminary Round 9 Maret. Final Round 19-21 April. Plus dialog perpajakan 24 April.

Kepanitiaan started from Oktober 2012.

ITF ini satu-satunya acara kampus dimana gw terlibat jadi panitia dari awal mulai ikut oprec sampai akhir dan plus-plus nya. Kesan gw adalah: capek-banget. Tapi cukup fun lah. Walau kerja gw emang suka ogah-ogahan (kata Waldo) maaf yak u.u;;. Moody sih, kalo lagi interested dikerjain, kalo ngga ya males u.u;;. Mengingat yah gw ga bisa ngomong ala SPG yang mempromosikan acara gitu, jadi tiap nelpon sponsor itu deg-degannya kayak mau nembak orang /kayak pernah aja/ /lebay bet/ Tapi lumayan jadi bisa belajar dikit-dikit soal ngomong gitu-gitu. Pas final round sampe nginep di kosan Ulfah, totalitas banget ya gw. 6 hari terakhir ini bener-bener capek, yang biasanya jalan cepet pun ga bisa. Plus makan cuma sekali sehari, pake keujanan pula, dan gw ga sakit sama sekali. Stamina gw wow ya alhamdulillah *narsis dikit boleh dongs*.

And now ITF is over. LPJ pun sudah kelar, kalo kata Nindy sih udah bener :3 Tinggal nunggu duit reimburse~ Lewat ITF ini, gw jadi kenal sama orang-orang yang tidak pernah gw kenal, atau yang mungkin tadinya cuma sekedar tau nama atau tampang. Lalu gosip-gosip di balik layar itu juga seru hahahaha XD Terus ini beberapa temen malah ngecengin anak Petra. Padahal yang menurut gw lumayan kece itu yang dari Unair, dari jaman foto-foto prelim. Tapi kayaknya orangnya udah lumayan tua ._. *abaikan* Another thing I got adalah dibilang mirip Dapi sama Tito, dan dia keukeuh ngomong gitu ke orang-orang, sampe Ulfah pun ikut-ikutan. *ini random abis-.-*

Well, masa perkuliahan tinggal 2 minggu. Cepet banget rasanya 6 semester berlalu. Sepertinya sisi melankolis gw akan semakin sering menampakkan dirinya ahaha :") Udah ah gamau jadi panitia apapun lagi, SPT mau jadi penikmat acara aja. Maunya sih sering-sering nongkrong or jalan bareng temen dll, soalnya abis UAS kan bakal pulang ke kampung halaman masing-masing dan mungkin balik kesininya lagi pas Capacity Building kalo ada. Kalo ga ada CB artinya pas mau nyerahin Laporan PKL dan Yudisium baru deh pada balik Bintaro. Maunya sih.... tapi masih ada beberapa tugas yang belom kelar. Huwaaaaaaah-.-

Besok itu foto buku Pak Yosep. Ngusulin ide buat foto ala model majalah fashion gitu dan ga ada yang menolak. Sekarang malah bingung setengah mati buat wardrobenya-_- Seumur-umur jadi cewek baru kali ini bingung soal baju=_= Oh weeelllll I have to search for inspiration, bye~

Waiting

Sorry, seems my melancholic side is taking over.

Emang gatel banget pengen ngeblog dari kemaren2 dan topiknya bukan ini sebenernya. Tapi topik yang itu kayaknya bakal cukup panjang, too tiring kalo dipost lewat hape.

At this moment, gw lagi nunggu kelas Pajak Internasional mulai. Berhubung kelasnya masih berisi kelas lain, yasudah masuk kelas kosong. Ya salah sendiri juga sih datengnya kecepetan. Tapi ya have no choice. So here I am, waiting.
Ngomongin waiting, it's been almost 3 years since SS501 in hiatus. And I'll keep on waiting for them to be together as a group of five. Padahal bisa dibilang gw orangnya ga sabaran. Nunggu 5 menit aja berasa 30 menit. Tapi ya sejak jadi Triple S, berasa jadi orang yang lebih sabar. Fangirl's life is all about waiting anyway. Waiting for their comeback, waiting for subbed videos, waiting for their cd to be released. And once you order that cd, you'll have to wait until their cd arrived. Kalo artisnya pas kesini, nunggu di bandara demi liat dari deket. Terus nunggu ngantri masuk venue konser/fanmeet entah dari jam sekian, padahal open gate biasanya 2 jam sebelum mulai. Bener-bener melatih kesabaran. Sekarang kalo dipikir-pikir lagi, if I have to wait on other things, well I should have more patience. Nunggu hal yang ga pasti selama 3 tahun (dan bakal lebih kayaknya, Kyu masih wajib militer) aja bisa, mestinya nunggu dalam hal-hal lain juga bisa dong. :")

Weight loss

And it's unnecessary. I need to gain, why the heck I lost it...... People probably will envy me since I easily lost weight and hardly gain one. But I'm underweight and need to put on at least 3 kilos to reach ideal body mass index. Gaining 1 kilo is hard already for me. I admit that lately my eating pattern has changed, plus I think too much. FYI, thinking burns calories, though I don't know how much. My mind can't stop thinking (except when sleeping).. maybe that's another factor why I lost weight again. Damn, I planned to have a dance routine (?) three times a week, wanna learn Wonder Girls' Like This. Dancing is extremely tiring for those who aren't used to it (like me), and I believe it can make people lost weight too.  So.... argh=.=

My sleeping pattern also changed this past week. I fell asleep at 10 or 11 pm, then woke up at around 2 or 3 am, since I haven't do Isya, then I'll sleep again. It's as if I'm extremely tired. In fact. sometimes I had noon nap, and I don't do much at college either. I wonder why it comes to be like that....

Anyway today I'll try this pedometer app in my phone. Wanna know how much steps I took in a day. I hope the app works well. Bye! Wish me luck for Mr. R class today, I have a presentation to do >.<

Postponed class

I was on my way to train station then got a text from my iinchou, saying the class is pushed back. So here i am, back at home. Talking about postponed, I'm postponing my Japanese course and contemplating about continuing or temporarily stopping. I enjoy my free Saturday too much eh...=.=;; *yawn* better get more sleep~

Chelsea match

No, not gonna blog about their game against Rubin Kazan. 2nd half underway and current score is 2-1 for CFC.

Jadiiii mau ngomenin (?) masalah penempatan. Kan kakak-kakak tingkat yang 2008 (masuknya) baru diumumin nih. Kalo diliat-liat lokasinya, menurut temen gw, IPK biar penempatan Jakarta itu 3,4. Haaaaa IPK gw ga nyampe segitu :( yaudah kayaknya pasrah aja mau dimana :(. Pengennya di Badora, biar skill bahasa Jepang gw kepake (sekarang aja gegara postpone udah lupa semua huft).

Terus mau ngomenin kok yang ultah April banyak aja yah. Ini udah 4 hari berturut-turut yang gw kenal ada aja yang ultah. Emang ada apa di bulan Juli-Agustus? *iykwim* *eh*

Tadi sore pas makan mi, Dewi ngitung berapa kalori yang ada di mi itu. Setelah makan sih ngitungnya, kira-kita makan 2000 kalori ternyata. That was mi dobel plus telor plus kornet. Belom lagi minumannya bukan air putih. Terus kalo diitung kira2 gw butuh 2400 kalori. Jadi makanan tadi itu semacem mencukupi buat seharian. Tapi..... ini gw laper. Yaudah makan roti. Go to hell kebutuhan kalori, perut gw minta diisi makanan.

Ohya prediksi awal gw untuk skor match adalah 2-0 maksimal. Kenapa ada maksimalnya? kalo 2-1 itu ga maksimal itungannya (?). Yah pokoknya gitu deh cara ngitung gw, 2-1 termasuk prediksi gw, tapi ya yang di bawah maksimal.

Oh well #KTBFFH!

5 days holiday

The last day off before back to campus tomorrow. But got several things up so I can't laid back (then why the heck you write this post?!?) Ok, I'll get busy after this post, currently still eating my breakfast~

This holiday ends in a flash. The only thing I remember clearly was only Bogor trip last Thursday. Playing in water using t-shirt and shorts was totally uncomfortable, I prefer wearing my swimsuit-.- Also I successfully proving that my phone is water resistant lol. Yeah I put it in my pocket, carrying it everywhere in water park. Actually quite scared it'll gone missing or broken when we were playing but alhamdulillah it's safe haha. 

Another story: the maid who've been working with my family for 10+ years resigned, so now we have to do chores by ourselves. But no sad feeling, since lately she's been slacking off and stuff, really annoyed us. Tomorrow will be the first weekday after she quit so let's see how it will turn out. Oh plus now I hold onto our house spare key yay! I can get home anytime now :p (totally wrong. you're still depending on train schedule).

Oops, I finished my food. Time to work on LPJ and transcript of that interview. Fight-oh!

Kemarin-kemarin part 2

9 hari antara hari ini sama yang kemarin-kemarin part 1 gw ngapain aja yak._.

18 Maret
Ulang tahunnya Marcha! Mau nyurprisin eh dianya pergi, gagal deh. Mau wawancara Ibu Kabid PA yang baru, eh si Ibu rapat mendadak. Mundur deh jadi besoknya.

19 Maret
Sebenernya ga ada kuliah di hari ini. Tapi gw tetep ke Bintaro. Gara2nya, wawancara Ibu Kabid PA di atas yang tertunda. Eh tau2 temen sekelompok Pemeriksaan Pajak ngajakin ngerjain tugas. Berhubung gw ogah kalo nugas kelompok di hari libur pake seragam, jadilah seragam.gw bawa di tas. Rempong ye? Emang. Tapi emang prinsip gw kalo ke kampus di hari libur ogah pake seragam haha. Kenapa harus bawa seragam? Ya itu, mau wawancara si Ibu Kabid, kan ga formal banget kalo pake jins masuk sekre. Terus abis itu rencananya mau nyurprisin Marcha. Tapi yang mau disurprisin tidak memberi kepastian (?) posisinya: di Bintaro, apa di rumah. Yaudah, gagal lagi deh. Emang bukan rejeki lo kayaknya, Cha ahaha. Terus jadilah gw ke...... kosan Ulfah. Titip tas, ganti baju dari seragam ke jins lagi, lalu nonton futsal kelas. Futsal hura-hura sih, berhubung udah pasti ga lolos ke babak berikut liga. Eh malah menang lah lol. Ya artinya ga sia-sia gw nonton~ Ohya konyolnya, pas pake seragam itu, sebelum dan sesudah wawancara, gw ketemu banyak temen kelas laen. Kan biasa tuh, kalo gw ngegabut nunggu waktu yang tepat pasti duduk-duduk di CD. Terus yang ketemu gw pasti nanya "Ngapain lo?" Ampun deh dijelasin ribet, yaudah jawabnya ga ngapa-ngapain. Terus selesai wawancara ketemu orang-orang lain lagi, pertanyaannya "Udah selesai (kuliah)?". Again, gamau repot jelasin, yaudah jawabnya udah. Padahal ya ga ada kuliah juga wkwk.
Eiya, transkrip wawancara beloman. Abis UTS ye bos, selasa malem langsung deh gw kerjain ._.v.

22 Maret
Ga ada kuliah juga sebenernya, emang jadwal kosong. Tapi direquest buat nganter proposal. Yaudah deh. Buru-buru ke Bintaro. Eh pas nganter proposal ditolak cuma gara-gara jabatan yang dituju di surat pengantar salah, mesti bikin ulang. Mana jawaban si bapak yang nolakin proposal bikin bete lagi hih! Hufffftttt sabaaaar acaranya sebulan lagi! (>.<)9

23 Maret
Pulsa abis, dipake nyokap nelpon om gw. Sisa 6 perak. Paket internet udah abis. Tapi berhubung belom niat pergi-pergi yaudah gw kalem, make wifi kan di rumah. Nanti aja minta isiinnya. Eh tau-tau mati lampu. Ya wifi mati. Kampret ya emang-_- Yaudah deh brb mandi solat n caw ke PIM, makan Raffel's yang vouchernya nyokap beli online. Makannya di foodcourt, dan berhubung lagi Indonesia vs Arab Saudi yaudah itu rasa nonton bareng gitu lah di food court. Sesuatu banget lah serunya, rame ada yang teriak gitu pas gol dan kebobolan dan saves :") Gw sih penonton kalem, tapi ternyata kalo nonton bola emang seruan rame-rame. Maklum aja ye kalo norak, berhubung biasanya kalo nonton bola di rumah sendirian. Iya, serumah yang isinya 3 cewek (nyokap, adek, gw) dan 1 cowok (bokap) ini yang demen nonton bola cuma gw. Bokap lebih demen ngegame dan nonton film di tv. Pernah sekali nonbar itu bareng om sama alm kakek gw yang dari nyokap, itu pas jaman SD, Piala Dunia 2002. Pokoknya besok-besok kalo bisa nonbar mau banget lah. Nonton langsung Chelsea di GBK harus banget-banget \m/

24 Maret
Eh itu hari ini, bukan kemarin. Agendanya: belajar. Belom kelar belajar malah ngeblog yaampun tobat C, katanya pengen ngerasain cumlaude? *self plak* Yaudah sampe sini dulu. Postingan berikutnya saat/abis liburan kayaknya. Ciao!

Kemarin-kemarin part 1

Yak gw lupa mau ngeblog apa. Tapi emang mau bikin postingan pake bahasa Indonesia sih, not in the mood to think much. Sebenernya kemaren udah punya beberapa pikiran yang mau dipost tapi telanjur ngantuk terus dibawa tidur dan......... lupa deh-_-;; Yaudahlah yaaa seinget gw aja.

15 Maret 2013. Itu hari wow banget2. Dimulai dengan bangun jam 3 buat nonton Chelsea (menang yay!) terus gw kuliah Bahasa Indonesia jam 7 sampe jam 11. In the middle of that, I got my monthly period, so hello kram perut. Pas break jumatan jadilah melipir ke kosan temen buat numpang guling-guling tepar dan jadinya skip lunch karena bener2 ga mood makan kalo perut begitu. Lanjut lagi kuliah jam 1 sampe jam 5. Padahal ada rapat jam 4, jadi ya langsung lanjut rapat abs kuliah. Sampe jam 6-6.30an gitu. Begitu sampe rumah itu rasanya ampun capeknya. Bokap nanya 'capek?' pun kayaknya it pertanyaan retoris deh yaaa.

Aduh masih banyak yang mau dipost sebenernya tapi nanti deh ya lagi urgent ngerjain tugas PI, induk kelompok gw lagi pergi lomba jadi ga ada yang ngoordinir. Biasanya sih udah kelar dari kemaren2 ga mepet pagi sebelom hari kuliahnya gini hahaha.

Ulalala ignore

Lately, I've been checking my friends' blog. Oh no, I'm not 'kepo'-ing them, blogs are up to be read by public right~ :p What amazed me... that they are quite open in their blog. I mean, they post everything about their daily life and what they feel about certain things or event..... Because I can't. I think I'm too introverted. Since I'm fully aware that blogs are meant to be read by other people, that thought restrain me to post several things. Normal things....which is not visible in my daily personality. Seems I care too much about my image.
Well, at least I'm still me. I never fake my personality, only hid some of them.

PS: Don't mind the title, I always have a hard time making a good one.

Fandom

It's been 5 years since I began to like Arashi (and J-Pop) and my 4th year in liking K-Pop. When I first start this fandom thingy, I told myself that maybe I'll only like them for 2-3 years at max, since I got bored so easily. But oh wow, it's been more than I predicted. I got too loyal (?) even buying original CDs and watching concerts. Those 2 things were........ something rare at that time. Anti-mainstream and I like being different so... maybe that's why it captured me. But now, K-Pop is everywhere. Even I got sick seeing those fanfic-novels made by fans and hearing those songs in many places. It's no longer exclusive. I once feel like quitting this thing but ...............well I'm stuck. Once you enter K-Pop too far and too deep, so difficult to find the exit. Though I already limit the artists I like and pay attention to, still too much. I need something which I like more than them. so that I could lower my priority if there's concert and stuff. Currently my fandom is Triple S , fans of SS501. They are on hiatus and each member are going solo, totally money consuming. Then I also like CNBLUE and JYJ/TVXQ much, and I'm also interested in KARA and BoA, and indie bands like Clazziquai and Urban Zakapa. I like BEAST, Infinite, IU, SPICA and A-JAX, but not that much, I can restrain myself from going to their concerts here and only felt a little regret. They are a lot right haha-_- But what should I do, I like their music....-.-
Oh, 10.09 am, got to get ready for class.

Me

I can't really describe how I really am but let's conclude from these personality traits:

• INTP
• Blood type B
• Aquarius
• Chinese zodiac: between Rooster and Dog
• Elemental: between Air and Water
• Sanguine, but my 2nd major trait is Melancholic

Nah, what kind of person am I? Feel free to guess ;)

Hellow

Watched Java Jazz for the first time March 1 yay! Exchanged my Sunday tickets with someone so that I could go with my friends. I got to watch Maliq n d'Essentials, Raisa, some-unknown-foreign-musician, Indra Lesmana and RAN. That day was like a "finally" day haha. First, that was because I finally saw Nicholas Saputra for real! XD I saw him when I was queuing to enter the venue. Back in 2010, I (and all the other female freshmen) was kind of fooled, thinking that he'd come in public lecture at freshmen orientation in UI. But he only came out in a pre-recorded video shown and make all of us disappointed haha. Second, finally I can saw Maliq live~ Actually when they released their new album and held free a showcase, me and a friend planned to attend. But we have to canceled it because of the bad weather. So yeah, finally! I wasn't their fans though, just curious. Then RAN was like 'finally' too. Back in my 2nd or 3rd year of junior high, we'd like to invite them for our school anniversary celebration but can't. At that time we don't have enough electricity for sound systems they inquired and it was pricey to rent and such.

Oh I still have another story actually, but my introvert trait forbid me to post. So :( and that's the story~

Bye!

PS: I'll try to write more. Only 30 posts within a year is unacceptable. This year have to exceed that yeah! Plus seems I need to fix my grammar.....

Throwing out some stuff

I got too much in mind, can't even concentrate in watching 7th Grade Civil Servant. Better pour some of those here first.

Drowning in sadness might be easier than searching for happiness. But hey, life is never easy.

I might not always be honest, but I'm trustworthy, really.

Sorry for not being a perfect friend.

LOL so random XD Okay, that's much better.

For those who wonder why I often write in English, lemme tell you my reason.
One. Such thoughts above, I dislike saying it in Indonesian. It will sound so cheesy and mushy. Just, ewh.
Two. Somehow I feel like I could express more in English.
Three. One of my English teacher said something like "If you want be fluent in English, you have to think in English." Since then I practicing by having fake convos with people in my head using English (weird, eh? well I am~) and thinking in English. That helps a lot. But sometimes I often forgot Indonesian words for several things, especially while having real conversation hahaha

March

This month........ I don't know what I should expect but hopefully everything will be successful.

March 3 - Java Jazz Festival!

I got 2 free tix by winning a quiz hahahaha such luck rarely happened to me XD. Actually, beside Craig David as special show, I don't know about any other performers. I mean I know their name already, but their songs? Not at all. I'm thinking to sell those tix but hey, this chance is once in a lifetime. I never attend this show before (this show is held annually) because I'm not interested enough to spend my money on it. But I'm really curious about it, so okay I'm attending~ Next problem is.... with whom I should go with? My mom said she wants to go since it's free and such. Then I told her I don't know any of their songs and the event will be spent with lots of walking and standing, so I wonder if she can endure it. If not, that means I'll ask a friend out. But too many friends who wants to go for free-_- If I gave one of them, it'll be unfair for others. Actually I'd like to give it to someone who'll pay me my Craig David tix (to watch him needs additional ticket). That way is much cheaper for s/he to watch this show right? :P Oh and if that friend knows about the performers that would be much better haha. Nah, anyone up for it? :3

March 8 - Public Lecture

I applied to be part of committee who works on this public lecture. I don't know what topic will be given, I could only hope it's interesting enough.

March 9

Indonesian Tax Festival-Preliminary Round

61 teams will be competing with their taxation knowledge. May the best teams go to final!

Music Bank in Jakarta

2PM, Infinite, Sistar, Eru, Teen Top, Super Junior, SHINee, BEAST. Wanna see Infinite, Teen Top, BEAST and Eru, but don't want to spend my money on them, they aren't my biases XD

March 10 - FA Cup Quarter Final Round: Manchester United vs Chelsea

KEEP THE BLUE FLAGS FLYING HIGH!! \m/ hahaha

March 25-28 - Last Mid Exam

This last semester only have 6 weeks of studying before exam, gosh why time flies so fast........

Mati gaya

As in I don't know what else I should do. I was watching Sassy Girl Choonhyang but the story is getting boring, since the main characters already became a couple though there's 6 episodes left. Then my Criminal Case energy isn't full yet. So here I am, typing this random post.
Anyway it's a month ago since my last post. Not a good blogger haha. Currently I'm in my last semester before graduate. I really wished to get Pak RR for Proses Bisnis WP class and slightly wished to get that killer Pak RE for Pajak Internasional class. In the end bye bye Pak RR and hello Pak RE-.- Seems if I want to get something I shouldn't wish too hard, should I? Or else it'll slip out from my hand. Oh, but once I bump into Pak RR and he greeted me first before I did so. The advantage of being treated eh, he remembers me hahaha. Quite satisfying lah xD.
Oh right, Chelsea FC is coming here yaaaaay! July 25 is bookmarked~! I don't think I'll watch any kpop concert if there's any around that date. Except Arashi, I'll definitely ignore whoever is coming and only watch Chelsea! Hope the ticket price won't be expensive. Ah, wanna buy Chelsea jersey to wear on that day, wanna have the blue one or white one. The original one is pretty expensive, but I don't want the KW one. I'm not gonna buy any other jersey anyway.

Already sleepy, annyeong!

2012

I want to make a proper post about that year but since I have no time (and simply lazy) so let me just make a short kaleidoscope.
2012 is amazing, I experienced many things which I usually didn't do. I like my sophomore class (hey it's college C, ain't high school), we did many things together. Mainly gossiping actually hahaha. There's that Pajak Got Talent, making Jason Mraz's I Won't Give Up a special song for 2E. I don't think I'll forget it, especially when my friend Dani breaking the mirror. Totally unexpected haha. We made it to final, but too bad I couldn't see that zombie dance. Ah, there's makrab 2E too.
For concerts, I got to watch AKB48 x JKT48 concert (free!) and Junsu's (major discount haha). Junsu's voice.... kyaaaaaa XDD Totally wishing there'll be JYJ concert this year coz I'll almost definitely watch it～!
2012... I'm being more active than before. Although 'mager' still own me most of the time lol. Ah right, my kosan is burned, makes me to choose commuting. Then Singapore trip. Dufan. Lost phone. And...... *lost signal* :b

All in all, adios 2012! Welcome 2013, my final year in college! Hope I'll have many idea and no obstacle in finishing the final report. Today ia D-18 before my birthday and D-1 UAS. No, I'm not ready at all. But I don't have that panic feeling to urge me to study, dangerous. What's wrong with me this term lah......-.- Okay, sleep! Jalja! Dreamless please u.u

PS: If you, whoever read this, want to give me birthday present, I'll gladly tell you my wish-list of several novels ;)
(bitch please C, no one gonna read this. and if there's one, s/he won't give you anything u.u;;)

Life-planning

There's a class about personal development, and its final assignment is making a life-plan for the next 10 years, using any media you wish. And I'm.........confused. I never plan my life. In the past 19 years (well, almost), I just let my life flows. Well, I made decisions when time to choose come, but I never plan it. Okay, lies. I once plan it. When I was in ninth grade. I planned to take fashion design major after graduating high school and then work part time at any store, oversea. Then, I planned to have my own clothing line and have my own boutique. Now all of those just turned to unrealized dreams.

Soooo what I am gonna do in the span of 10 years? I'll get married, work, trying to get scholarship to Japan or England.... But well, I don't know when all of those happen. All I know it's not gonna happen soon. Not gonna happen in the first 4 of  10 years. Plus all of those plans if I put it into writing, I'll just make a short paragraph. Not good enough to turn it in. Argh. Plus I still have other things to do, and seems like I'll be having my period (stomachache) and currently I have a flu. Daebak. And I'm not even ready for exams, which starts next week. Dead.