Mikir yang berat-berat

Bukan mikirin berat (badan) sih ya, tapi sering aja gitu ber "what if".
Salah satu "what if" yang dipikirin adalah........

"Kalau dipanggil diklat fungsional, ikut atau ga?"

Ga paham sih bisa nolak atau ga, tapi yang jelas, sebelum diangkat jadi fungsional pemeriksa itu harus diklat dulu. Nah bagi yang udah diklat, sudah pasti jadi kandidat untuk diangkat menjadi fungsional pemeriksa. Para kandidat itu, sebelum diangkat dikirimin SR, ditanya kesediaannya untuk jadi FP (mulai males ngetik jabatannya, kepanjangan). Kalau tidak bersedia pun, tetep aja bisa diangkat, suka-suka kantor pusat sih pft.

Kalo gw...... diklatnya gw iyain. SRnya? Hmmm ninggalin ortu gw cuek sih /plak/ /anakdurhaka/. Ninggalin pasangannya ini yang......... Karena bisa ketemu seminggu sekali aja udah kangen mulu, kalo gw ditaronya di ujung Indonesia gimana cerita? ^.^;;

Jadinya: bingung.

Baru "what if" ya padahal. Pasangan wek juga belom pasangan dalam buku nikah.
Yagitudeh gw terlalu Yamah*, selangkah di depan. Eh (pikirannya) melangkah kejauhan kayaknya.

Ah tempatkan saya tidak berhadapan dengan WP napa, I don't have good communication skill :(
Forever jadi pelaksana tapi pengen beasiswa S2.
*kek gini pengen jadi eselon 1? iyuh, lemah*

Bhay.

What I want to have

Car
More make-up (since I only have the most basic ones)
Yoga mat
Drinking bottle with milliliters printed
HOLIDAY!!
You (lah kan udah :p)
*added* Dumbbell(s)
*added* HP buat ngontak WP. Eh sebenernya mah ada tablet kantor, tapi ga pewe aja nelponnya.
*added* sneakers yang keren, biar lebih termotivasi ngegym #lah

Itu dulu kayaknya. Belinya kapan yak ^^;;
Yang holiday sih mana bisa dibeli T.T

Baper post

Baper gimana? Baper cuma gegara ada yang lagi ultah di kosan sekarang. Karena isinya anak-anak mahasiswa, ya bisa dikira-kira lah seberapa ramenya nyurprisinnya.  Terus jadi inget pas jaman ngekos di pisok dapet surprise juga. Jarang dapet surprise sih, jadi inget berapa kalinya. Pernah dari pisokers, pernah dari ciwi2 78 STAN, pernah juga dari geng bigos. Ga pernah heboh sih tapi ya.... seneng aja hehe. Jadi kangen mereka huaaaa :") Baik-baik ya kalian dimanapun kalian berada :")

Hidup

Hidup itu tuntutan.
Seberat apapun, sudah tidak ingin dan mencoba bunuh diri, akan ada yang mencoba menyelamatkan dan dituntut untuk hidup.

Hidup itu pilihan.
Antara kebutuhan dan keinginan. Antara diri sendiri atau orang lain. Antara prinsip dan kebiasaan.

Hidup itu kewajiban.
Sebagai anak. Sebagai orangtua, Sebagai pasangan. Sebagai atasan. Sebagai bawahan. Sebagai hamba Tuhan. Sebagai warga negara. Sebagai pemimpin. Sebagai pengikut. Sebagai manusia.


Hidup itu dinikmati.
Karena tidak semua hal berjalan sesuai harapan, sampai mati.

6th week

Whew, it's been a long time since I post something. I'm on my 6th week working in this building, from either 4th or 5th floor. The view I often see is people march for demonstration. The cafeteria is small with not many variant of food, but cheaper from next door. There's also new uniform rule. Hmm I don't know what to post. Still not doing much things ppffttt. Well, I try to enjoy as best as I could. Although I still feel that I'm in the wrong place.......... I'll just figure things out as time goes by. Anyway There are many kinds of people, good ones, got treated sometimes xD. Okay that's it for now.

Oh, I just remember my paycheck is still on hold. Hope I get good news about it this evening.

Personality test

So I randomly found this test in my FB feed and took the test. The result is like what the picture said. Kinda disagree because I think I am not temperamental nor sensitive lol. I answered some questions without thinking much too~ Not sure if this is accurate haha.

Trash can

There are some people who exist like that for me, being a 'trash can'. It's not a bad remark, I throw all my problems to them and they accept it, sometimes being quiet and other times giving advice and scolding me. Thanks a lot, fellas. You are my precious.

Cita-cita

Wisuda UI

Jadi TKD gw udah lewat yuhuuuuu terus bisa dateng ke Wisuda UI. Skor TKD gw........... good enough walau tidak memuaskan. 'cuma' 379 kok

Wisuda UI untuk program S1 Reguler diadakan pada tanggal 29 Agustus 2014. Tadinya nyaris ga jadi kesana karena ga punya temen, lalu Yanar melihat twit dilema gw(?) terus ngajakin barengan. Walau judulnya barengan tapi berangkatnya ga barengan, dan ujung-ujungnya disana ga ketemu sama sekali lol. Malah ketemu Cornal-_- dan senior-senior Folklore yang lain, dan jadinya nimbrungin mereka karena sendirian u.u;;;

Emang kalo niat pasti bisa aja. Lagi celingukan nungguin entah siapapun yang nongol, senior Folklore bilang "Eh itu anak SCI bukan tuh." Pas nengok ternyata si abang, langsung aja gw panggil. Voila, ketemu lah sama Jansen, salah satu wisudawan SCI yang gw cariin. Yaudah bye Cornal, barengan si abang terus deh gw. Lalu kita nyari Wayan, yang posisinya udah jelas dimana. Pas otw kesana, unexpectedly berhasil ketemu Richang juga, yang sekarang........ songong(?) ah gitu lah. Ngasih bunga dapet makasih sambil lalu doang hem. Lanjut nyari Wayan tapi berhasilnya cuma kontakan sama Vania. The signal is so........... ugh. Terus jadinya foto bareng cuma bertiga karena Vania mesti buru-buru ada tugas ko-as jaga malem sampe 7 pagi (iya langsung banget abis wisuda). Terus berpisah jalan dengan mereka dan udah mau pulang tadinya. Begitu keluar dari crowded area akhirnya gw berhasil mendapatkan sinyal yang mendingan, jadi Line-nya Wayan masuk ke gw. Uyeeeey ketemu empat-empatnya!!

Pulangnya nebeng Wayan deh, makasih om, tante. Lumayan banget mana ujannya ga nyantai. Sebenernya bisa aja naik kereta (dan bakal lebih cepet) tapi suka ga enakan kalo nolak tawaran fufufu. Thank you girl!

pengen ganti profpic yang foto bareng Wayan tapi fotonya belom diaplot si empunya yaudahlahya~

TKD

Alias Tes Kompetensi Dasar, diadakan Kemenkeu dan Kemenpan antara tanggal 25-29 Agustus 2014 bagi STANers2010. As I'm writing this, the first session is underway. My turn will be in Wednesday noon, but I feel nervous already. Wishing the best of luck for all of us. Honestly, I'm still thinking like "Shit TKD is REAL!" and since yesterday I'm starting to panic hahaha. Well it's needed for me, otherwise I won't study pffttt. Sooooooo okay that's it for now, maybe I'll write again after I do my test.

Oh also wishing my laptop to get well soon, dad is taking it to tukang service *iya sebodo wae tetiba jadi bahasa*. Currently using either my sis' or dad's, not as comfortable as mine ulalala.

Random

Berawal dari ucapan lebaran malah jadi curhat dan ngomongin jodoh. Katanya sih, jodoh itu ngga ada. Yang ada adalah dua orang yang memutuskan untuk berjuang bersama. Karena kalo mau nyari yang selalu baik mah ga akan nemu. Lalu gw disodorin foto quote itu. Terus intinya apa? Ya itu, be grateful for him/her who has chosen you, lalu  berjuang bersama.

Yaudah gitu aja, met lebaran!

Mood sekip

Listen boy, my first love story ~
Well itu lirik awal lagu Gee by SNSD sih :v I think it suits this post.
(PS: 'boy' nya itu gw ga ngerefer ke siapapun, emang liriknya gitu :v)

you better not reading this haha

I like blogger but there more interesting things in tumblr. Well.. here are the links, because I can't reblog

Something about memories

The Rules of Ladies (I like #234)

The Rules of Gentleman

Quote It (my favs are : 1 2 3 )

Phoods

Those are probably cliche but...... hmmm.... I like quotes, because they are inspiring and have powers to lead people to a way, either better or worse. Maybe because I am a reader, that I come to like words.

It's only halfway through 2014 but I feel like I've experienced soooo much and feel like 6 years older *lebay* Better I prepare myself for more things that life's bringing me.

Current mood: totally pissed off. Oh seriously C be cool, calm down.

Convo with mom

C (me): Ma, boleh ke Bandung ga? Sama Tia..
M (mom): Puasa2? Ngapain...?
C: Wisuda anak ITB
M: Emang yang wisuda siapa aja?
C: *nyebutin satu-satu*
M: Nanti puasanya batal lagi...
C: (yakeleus) Ya ngga laaah. Puasa kok tetep...
M: *no further response*

ulalalala :vvvvv

Air dan Emas

If someone is offered to choose what he wants between gold and water, he will choose gold. Because gold is expensive, valuable, etc, you name the reason. But water is something people need daily. Nobody can live without water. When water vanish, people will want to trade every gold he has for water. Be a 'water' that is highly needed and irreplaceable, instead of 'gold' that can be sold or exchange easily.

(cie gitu gw berfilosofi, tetiba keingetan aja sih cerita di novel jadul wakaka)

Apapun lah (lagi)

I listen to Utada Hikaru's First Love because the song popped in my head after hearing news about her 2nd wedding. Then I listen to Come Back To Me and Flavor Of Life (also her songs). As usual I searched for the lyrics translation and I feel like I can relate to those. (But I feel that to many songs so..) The lyrics are so........galau haha. #udahgituaja :p

Last night I dreamed about going to Japan, only for one day, as if it was a business trip. But instead of going to places I want to visit... I am busy buying food and snacks lol. Maybe because I slept in hungry state xD. Hope that dream comes true soon! (About going to Japan, for more than a day and not all about food xD)

I think I should be consistent and persistent in many aspect if I want to be at peace with him and myself.


Gah I haven't blog about my Jogja trip. Oh right I am thinking about making plans for my future trips. I know it's (having plans) so unlike me. Bul now I think planning trip carefully is necessary, because I haven't been able to visit all places I want to when I went Jogja. So.... let's make future trip plans! I won't put the dates but I'll just make a list about how many days, how to get there, prices estimation and stuff. Also friends that I can asked to be my tour guide~ (Or maybe I can just sleep over at her (or his????) house to save money lol)

Cuap-cuap sotoy

Gw mau sok ngomenin politik ah biar ngehits /plak. No, it's just several people in my timeline talked about it so I got curious and read news too, especially about the candidates for presidential election this year. So i would like to share my opinion, who is a total amateur and just an audience of all these things.

For 2014 Indonesia Presidential Election, there are 2 sets of President-Vice President candidate. The first pair is Joko Widodo and Jusuf Kalla, nicknamed Jokowi-JK and the second pair is Prabowo Subianto and Hatta Rajasa, nicknamed WoTa just kidding, I'll just shortened it with PS-HR. Each sets backed up by several political party. Jokowi is from PDI-P and JK is from Golkar, and they are supported by PDI-P, NasDem, PKB and Hanura. Prabowo is from Gerindra and Hatta is from PAN, and they are supported by 6 party, Gerindra, PAN, PKS, Golkar, PPP, and PBB. Actually several days ago there was a news about the 3rd set of candidate, consisting Aburizal Bakrie from Golkar and Pramono Edhie Wibowo from Demokrat. But this pair seems fail(?). Anyway what is weird that Golkar spread their support to 2 different groups. Although JK said he acted as himself, not under Golkar, it's just weird. Also Demokrat is not taking side, it's said they will keep neutral. Oh, there's also news about the party in PS-HR group are struggling to get positions in ministry. Just........... seriously, I want to sneer at them. No matter how they word it (dividing the works, they said), for me it looks like they just want to have power to control this country. They are working for their own group, not for Indonesia. Plus there are several 'criminals' within those group. So I think I'll just support my governor Jokowi. Because he works for Indonesia. I don't know much about JK though, but he seems capable enough to support Jokowi.

Apapun lah :v

Though I am not into kpop as much as before (well seems it is still too much for several people :v) honestly I am still liking this genre because of the music and the artists' personality. Not all have good looks. Even I should admit my biases are not the most handsome ones (except Lee Jonghyun, I don't understand how could he be so good looking!). But they got great personality and sing well. Currently there are lots of idol who are able to sing well so... great personality is quite a must for me. Also I am liking Akdong Musician's songs. Debut with full album and all the songs self composed by the 17-18 year old brother of the duo. Just d-a-e-b-a-k.

Oh randomly watch (listen) Marry Your Daughter by Brian McKnight and feeling sad. The song is beautiful and I feel sad. So randomly pathetic.

Crush

Not 2NE1's song.
So I got new actor crush yay! Dane Dehaan is so handsome, saw him as Harry Osborn in The Amazing Spider-man 2 mmmm yesterday. He is 28 years old but.............he is already married *heart cracking* lol.
The character Harry Osborn... I prefer him than the one in previous films. He is more psychotic(?) in this movie. But maybe it's just my tendency to like someone who is abnormal haha.

Ah, randomly thinking "How can Emma Watson date, isn't she busy?" then I googled and found the latest news about her and his non-famous bf, which dated last Monday. Then I think "Oh she still manage it, good for her." Yeah I know it's just so random :v

But it's so annoying whenever I got new actor crushes they are either gay or married. That really makes me can't have delusional thought about them huft hahahaha.

Money can't buy us happiness

But it is needed to pay our bills, internet bill to be specific lol.
We don't need much money. We only need 'enough'. Enough to fulfill our needs and wants haha. Well I don't know how much money I could earn. But there are soooo many things that I can afford once I have enough. I need to be a good financial planner to maintain it.
Here is my priority list:
1. New phone. I want Nexus 5, its spec is enough for me. I love Sony phones but they are getting more expensive, also their android update is kinda late.
2. DSLR camera. I love taking pictures since...... I don't remember when. I once took a picture with a great sky as background with only my 3.2 MP cellphone's camera. I think since that time? I'm not a pro, not enough money to do so. Uh my other hobby needs to be fulfilled too so... xD
3. A Japan trip. Nah, I need to be more precise about the 5W 1H of this trip. Because there are so many places in Japan that I would like to visit and those places scattered all over the country.
4. Venice trip. Oh but not as important as visiting Japan for me :p

Basically that's all. Actually if SS501 will ever be reunited again I would like to go over to Korea and watch their concert. But I don't have much hope haha, not in my priority list. I need car too, so it will be easier if I want to do a trip domestically. Can't drive yet, so later maybe. There are many other dreams but those I mention before are my priority.

I have so many hobbies so I can't determine what is my passion and such. Those hobbies I acquired because I often spend time alone and I am easily getting bored about things. Having many hobbies makes me able to alter one with another in case I'm bored ^^;; Among those hobbies, photography and drawing always gives me satisfaction once I successfully draw well or take a great photo. I kinda hope those pictures I draw or take inspire someone. Reading always clear my thirst of emotions.

This blog is a result of being alone and having much hobby. I need to share my thoughts, my head is full, most times with random like this post(?) lol. That's why several post tagged 'pensieve' (HP lover will know what I relate to).

Zaijian for now.