2017

Actually I'm not sure if I should make a typical new-year-new-me resolution. But it's a good way to start improving. I mean, I know we have to improve and grow everyday. But if you have a moment to feel fresh and start anew, well it's also a good thing, right?

I need to improve:

1. Driving skill.

2. Caring for myself. Skin care, hair care, overall health care.

3. Doing sports.

4. Studying, for D4.

5. Financial management.

6. Time management.

7. Tasks management.

8. Make up skill

9. Cooking skill..........maybe.

10. I don't know what else, maybe I'll find out about it later.

Aside for that, there are things I want to buy as well. Hope I have enough money to afford:

1. External hard drive

2. Good headphone.

3. Complete basic make-up tools (the products and brushes)

4. Cheap flight tickets to watch Coldplay in April

5. Wrist watch.

6. (I made a list at office, now I forget what I wrote.)

I also have wishes that is a bit unrealistic.

1. Moved from my current section.

2. Stronger relationship with my boyfriend /thisisembarassingkyaaa/

I think I should write down those improvements I plan to make in a paper and stick it in my room and working space. That's it for now. Happy new year!

Galavv

Alay banget ya judulnya. Hello, I'm writing again.

Money can't buy us happiness

But it is needed to pay our bills, internet bill to be specific lol.
We don't need much money. We only need 'enough'. Enough to fulfill our needs and wants haha. Well I don't know how much money I could earn. But there are soooo many things that I can afford once I have enough. I need to be a good financial planner to maintain it.
Here is my priority list:
1. New phone. I want Nexus 5, its spec is enough for me. I love Sony phones but they are getting more expensive, also their android update is kinda late.
2. DSLR camera. I love taking pictures since...... I don't remember when. I once took a picture with a great sky as background with only my 3.2 MP cellphone's camera. I think since that time? I'm not a pro, not enough money to do so. Uh my other hobby needs to be fulfilled too so... xD
3. A Japan trip. Nah, I need to be more precise about the 5W 1H of this trip. Because there are so many places in Japan that I would like to visit and those places scattered all over the country.
4. Venice trip. Oh but not as important as visiting Japan for me :p

Basically that's all. Actually if SS501 will ever be reunited again I would like to go over to Korea and watch their concert. But I don't have much hope haha, not in my priority list. I need car too, so it will be easier if I want to do a trip domestically. Can't drive yet, so later maybe. There are many other dreams but those I mention before are my priority.

I have so many hobbies so I can't determine what is my passion and such. Those hobbies I acquired because I often spend time alone and I am easily getting bored about things. Having many hobbies makes me able to alter one with another in case I'm bored ^^;; Among those hobbies, photography and drawing always gives me satisfaction once I successfully draw well or take a great photo. I kinda hope those pictures I draw or take inspire someone. Reading always clear my thirst of emotions.

This blog is a result of being alone and having much hobby. I need to share my thoughts, my head is full, most times with random like this post(?) lol. That's why several post tagged 'pensieve' (HP lover will know what I relate to).

Zaijian for now.

Idoling

Honestly I no longer has that *much* interest to kpop, especially for groups who makes their debut after 2012. Even groups who debut at 2012, I probably only went as far "oh they released a new song" and watch the MV. If I like the song I'll download it, if not, well enough then. I prefer identify myself Korean pop culture enthusiast(?). Why?
First, I listen to their music, yeah, not all though. I only have one fandom and that is Triple S, for SS501. Yeah they are not popular currently, because they are in hiatus. They were quite popular back then, on par with DBSK (as 5). As for DBSK/TVXQ-JYJ, CN BLUE, KARA (I have their CDs, my sis like Yunho and yeah a Cassiopeia too I think), I'm not in their fandom, just liking them a bit more than other groups, still less than SS501. Plus whenever they perform, I also pay attention to the dance moves and dancers.
Second,  I still watch k-drama, the viral one or the one who got my idols(?) starred in it. Even the currently airing dramas which starred by Yuchun (3 Days) and Hyunjoong (Inspiring Generation), I'm not really watching them, just my sis blabbing the stories after she watched them.
Third, I watch Korean TV shows too, Running Man and KBS' shows. My TV has KBS World so I watch it sometimes, much better than local soap operas and kinda tired watching those detective serials on FOX. Gag Concert are funny, though sometimes they use Korean jokes that I can't comprehend.
Fourth, I watch Korean movie. They has several quite good movies. You gotta watch Old Boy, it's so angst and I really think the scriptwriter is sadist.
Last, I gotta admit they have quite good fashion sense. And good cosmetics. (I still prefer The Body Shop though). And high end gadgets. (Samsung is cool, but again, I prefer Sony).

You probably wonder if those 5 points are not much haha. Because I don't tweet much about them anymore, only tweet after watching/listening something. I don't 'kya' often, and no longer regard my bias as my husband or boyfriends. I don't get broken hearted when their dating or marriage news surface, I always think that's good for them, means they have a little bit of normal life.  There are several people who are still like that in my timeline, so from what I see, I'm not that much interested.

As for Arashi, it's tiring keeping up for a group who has their own show 3/4 times a week, not to mention individual dramas if there are any, plus their single as that drama soundtrack, a full album once a year, and by the end of the year as Kohaku Uta Gassen MC. Ah also commercials, countless. Concert tours, 1-2 every year, awesome concerts though, they put great effects. So yeah it's getting tiring and a little boring, same pattern every year. If the drama is good I'll watch though. Also the PVs, but not right away after it's released.

As for 48 (AKB and JKT), I'm not wota. I just happen to like several of AKB's old songs and know several members. Yeah I did watch JKT's shows but again, I only know several members. I pay attention to them becuase they are  AKB's sister group and I found it's quite interesting to have such group in this country xD.

So yeah, it's not so important post but kinda want to talk about it. Idoling is a place to be delusional and quite effective in managing stress (for me).
Kkeut, bye.

Nuri Safarina

Nuri Safarina, or nicknamed Nue, is a friend of mine. We lived in the same all-girl  boarding house for two years until the house caught in fire in 2012. In that boarding house there were 8 first years(when we came in). After the fire, 8 of us actually want to stay in the same house again, but we can't find a house that can accomodate of us all. So we went each on our own way, but still in contact especially if one of us' birthday coming up.  This is the photo of us, from back in 2012. 

Nue is the long haired girl in red

Somehow it's hard to get all of us together after the fire. The last time we are in full team was on August 24, Nue's birthday last year. There are photos actually, but in Kak Yougi's (Nue's boyfriend) camera and weren't uploaded. Even in our graduation there's only 7 of us, since Paci decided not to attend. 

On the night of January 29, 2014, she got an accident, suddenly fell from the motorcycle on her way back to Bintaro with her boyfriend. I only know about the accident in January 30 morning, because Kak Yougi is tweeting from Nue's twitter. Arum and I went to visit her on RSPP that night, but visiting hour was over already so we only talk to her mom. Her brain got internal bleeding, so she was unconscious. A week later, because Arum and I worked in the same building we went there again, finally got to see her. Still unconscious, in comma state. We also met Manda. She and her mom said the day before Nue was gaining consciousness and recognizing people around her. After that, her condition suddenly dropped into comma. Arum and I visit her again on February 18 night (which is Manda's birthday). Then on February 19 noon I made a post in this blog before this. By the night I got news that she passed away.

Life is short eh? She was just 21.There are several plans that pisokers (our group of 8's name) haven't able to accomplish. Once we went to Bogor, staying over at Vindy's house. But Nue couldn't join because she has to meet her advisor for her final assignment. It's as if she got her way of revenge because we left her at that time. Then we promised to go to Bandung to compensate for leaving her to Bogor, staying over at her house. Well, we did go to Bandung, visiting her house and final resting place. Life is irony after all..... Ah, we also haven't took our photo together in photo studio. Now I think the 7 of us won't do. it will feel different, awkward, sad. From her death day on, my birthday (January 31) and Manda's won't ever be the same. 

It's only been a week, but I miss her. She is really lively, full of spirit. When you sad, she'll cheer you up and bring back your good mood. She has unique and loud laugh, the kind that will make you laugh too. She is pretty, dilligent, and friendly. One of the best of friend you can get. I still remember on one occassion she and Arum suddenly got into my room, bringing laptop, making me watch horror movie with them. I hate horrors, but she insisted and even turning off the room light. So each of us hugging pillow, and watch. The movie was Shutter (Thailand version). 

There are many moments with her, I can't possibly writing them all. But pretty Nuri, I'll remember those all, with a smile (and tears probably haha). As many said, the world is ugly and you deserve heaven. May God washed away your sins and accepting all your good deeds. May you rest in peace in the best place God gave you.

(don't be sad Paci for not in this picture :p)

Last class

Kuliah terakhir gw di STAN adalah Pajak Internasional, oleh dosen legendarisnya anak pajak: Mr. R, di J102. And that room, seems would be my last classroom in D3, because it's also my last exam's room. Pas mendekati akhir kuliah itu, gw tau-tau inget, kalo ruang kelas yang pertama kali gw masukin (bukan pas daftar ulang yak) itu E104. Perkenalan sama anak-anak, dimana yang cowok masih pada botak and that makes me so hard to remember their names. Terus pas jalan pulang ke angkot, tau-tau ya keinget gitu aja selama 3 tahun terakhir ini. I even walk slowly and just feel like crying. Even when writing this I feel like crying hahahaha. Okay back to topic.

This past three years I learnt a lot. Kuliah dan life lesson. I have fun a lot. Too much maybe lol. I still remember my 17th and 18th birthday. Pas awal masuk pada kaget pas tau gw 1994 birth. Komennya "Demi apa lo bahkan belom 17?!?" Terus komen orang sekarang adalah "Demi apa lo belom 20?!?" haha. 

Dinamika. 

Ga ngikutin, gegara males. Ngerasa cuma dikerjain dan disuruh ngerjain things unrelated to perkuliahan, dan ospek FKG itu masih jauh lebih nyeremin dan hal-hal yang disuruh dikerjain itu berguna. Terus nangis di malem pertama ngekos, gegara ditelpon nenek gw. Seriusan. Oh don't laugh at me.

Tingkat 1. (1-D)

Nilai UTS pertama gw, Pengantar Akuntansi. 88. Keren kan? Tapi setelah itu, accounting was really hard, I never reach that score again-_-. 17th birthday, traktir beberapa orang yang cees di kelas sama gw di PH (sponsored by my mom definitely) Traktir anak kosan juga. Pergi ke WS, SS, badminton, nonton futsal. Awal dimana Thya ngira Yogi cowok gw cuma gegara didatengin ke kosan pas mau hedon bareng anak kelas-.- (Things clarified, we're not and never date each other hahahaha). Di semester 2 nya ada makrab, ke Puncak. Kesana nyusul dianter bokap gegara gw ada les Jepang paginya. Pas tingkat 1 sempet mikir "These things, will go by quickly, and then we'll be on our senior year in just a blink." Ya emang cepet banget ya.......

Tingkat 2. (2-E)

Pertamanya sih mikir, kenapa sekelas sama mereka. Kok kayaknya seruan tingkat sebelumnya... (biasa sindrom kelas baru). Untungnya sih sekelas sama Yogi dan Irvan, temen segeng (?) ngehedon. Jadinya yaudah asik asik aja. Eh malah anak kelas ini lebih kongkow dan hedon dari kelas sebelomnya. Nonton dan karaokean bisa sebulan sekali hahaha. Nongkrong di lawson lah, sevel lah, nongkrong n ngegosip pokoknya. Eiya, masih inget pas Yogi kepilih jadi ketua kelas malah gw ketawain, really not sure kelas bakal berjalan lancar. Tapi ya ternyata lancar aja, makrab pun juga oke aja. Ke Anyer. Walau vilanya rada errrrr...... ya asik lah tetep. Gw keukeuh minta bus AC haha maap ye, bisa mabok gw kalo jalan kayak gitu tapi ga AC/ Tingkat dua ini dimana game truth or truth merajalela, menumbuhkan bibit gosip dan kepo di dalam tiap anggotanya (plis ce kesambet apa bahasa lebay gitu). Ada yang cinlok pula (cieee IndRio). Terus di akhir semester 4 jadi agak aktif gitu, ngikut Starfal jadi sie dekor (close recruitment sih gegara Vindy a.k.a Menye) dan daftar IMP n ITF. I can say that my sophomore year is my peak.

Tingkat 3. (3-B)

Nah dari sini mulai pulang pergi. Gara-gara kosan kebakaran. terus nyari kosan yang bisa ber8 lagi ga nemu. Yaudah deh, males, pulang pergi aja sekalian. Awalnya sih capek banget, apalagi kalo di hari itu ada Komputer Audit. Udah kuliah sampe sore, ada rapat, bawa-bawa laptop pula. Makes my moody self even worse, sorry for the victims. Tapi lama-lama ya enjoy aja lah. Terus sindrom kelas barunya beneran jadi nyata. Anak-anak kelas....... asik sih, individually. Tapi ya gitu. Ga kompak-kompak amat. Ga hedon dan nongkrong banget kayak pas tingkat 2. Ujung-ujungnya kalo ngehedon ya perginya sama anak 2E lagi, atau nimbrungin kelasnya Thya, atau sama Menye. Tapi paling banyak photo session ya tingkat 3 ini. Foto BA sama foto buku pak Yosep. Bahkan pas foto buku pak Yosep sampe dimake-upin dan dicatokin marcha dan minjem wedgesnya Thya yang 11cm. Tapi hasil fotonya gw dibilang kayak emak-emak sama Frans-_- Ohya gw sampe ikutan bikin kaos futsal kelas, gegara pas tingkat2 sebelumnya ga ada barang kelas gitu. Makrab pun ga jadi. Semoga aja ini quality time setelah UASnya jadi. Di tingkat 3 ini juga sibuk ITF, walau gw rada gabut....... Cerita lengkapnya silahkan kepoin post gw sebelum2nya. 

Life lesson.

Ya organisasi. Gimana rasanya mengurus sesuatu itu... ya begitulah. Terus relationship with other people. Gimana sabar tiap kali roaming orang ngobrol pake bahasa daerah, ketawa-ketawa sendiri. Pengen tau tapi ga ngerti-.-;; Gimana cara ngeinterview orang (Ibu Widya Novita), ngomong sama stranger pas nyesponsorship... Ngegosip... Prejudices. Jealousy. Envy. I even fell in love twice haha. Or was the first one crush only? Dunno, it was more than 4 months clearly. Yeah right there, I can hear your "cieeee". Oh don't ask me for details now. Ask me 10 years later, then I'll tell you gladly while laughing it off. If you feel surprised, better not. I'm introvert whose trying to be more open via this blog. So I really do not tell anyone about what I feel. Kepo me if you want, you'll get nothing anyway and I won't speak up. Kalo temen-temen gw ada yang jadian, putus, diPHP, ngePHP, ditolak, dipedekatein, womanizer, etc laaah. Oh weelllll I learn a lot. 

Yah begitulah kehidupan selama 3 tingkat di STAN. Belom lulus kok, belom UAS, CB, PKL, Laporan PKL, Yudisium. Lalu dirayakan di SPT dan Wisuda. Untuk dua itu gw mau tampil cetar rawr so that my friends won't forget me easily haha. Wait for it!

PS: (ignore this-.-) If anyone who knows me and I know you too, and you'd like to..... comment(?) my blog directly to me, feel free to do so. Ga bakal gw teriakin 'kepo lu!' kok. Eh bakal gw teriakin gitu sih, tapi ya cuma iseng aja :v Whatever I posted is public anyway~ 

One day left

I just got my usual text message about my class schedule. Turns out that I only have one day left to study in a classroom. After that, I'll only have exams, practical work, and report. Somehow, I feel like crying. Really. Dunno why...... I'm just....... touched? Or feel relieved? Nope, not those. A feeling that said "Now it has come to this". Such kind of feeling. Whatever, I can't even explain it. I just want to cry, with a smile :')
Will post more later, currently focusing on watching The Voice (#TeamUsher!) and it's almost time for MU vs Chelsea~! (#KTBFFH!)

Waiting

Sorry, seems my melancholic side is taking over.

Emang gatel banget pengen ngeblog dari kemaren2 dan topiknya bukan ini sebenernya. Tapi topik yang itu kayaknya bakal cukup panjang, too tiring kalo dipost lewat hape.

At this moment, gw lagi nunggu kelas Pajak Internasional mulai. Berhubung kelasnya masih berisi kelas lain, yasudah masuk kelas kosong. Ya salah sendiri juga sih datengnya kecepetan. Tapi ya have no choice. So here I am, waiting.
Ngomongin waiting, it's been almost 3 years since SS501 in hiatus. And I'll keep on waiting for them to be together as a group of five. Padahal bisa dibilang gw orangnya ga sabaran. Nunggu 5 menit aja berasa 30 menit. Tapi ya sejak jadi Triple S, berasa jadi orang yang lebih sabar. Fangirl's life is all about waiting anyway. Waiting for their comeback, waiting for subbed videos, waiting for their cd to be released. And once you order that cd, you'll have to wait until their cd arrived. Kalo artisnya pas kesini, nunggu di bandara demi liat dari deket. Terus nunggu ngantri masuk venue konser/fanmeet entah dari jam sekian, padahal open gate biasanya 2 jam sebelum mulai. Bener-bener melatih kesabaran. Sekarang kalo dipikir-pikir lagi, if I have to wait on other things, well I should have more patience. Nunggu hal yang ga pasti selama 3 tahun (dan bakal lebih kayaknya, Kyu masih wajib militer) aja bisa, mestinya nunggu dalam hal-hal lain juga bisa dong. :")

Throwing out some stuff

I got too much in mind, can't even concentrate in watching 7th Grade Civil Servant. Better pour some of those here first.

Drowning in sadness might be easier than searching for happiness. But hey, life is never easy.

I might not always be honest, but I'm trustworthy, really.

Sorry for not being a perfect friend.

LOL so random XD Okay, that's much better.

For those who wonder why I often write in English, lemme tell you my reason.
One. Such thoughts above, I dislike saying it in Indonesian. It will sound so cheesy and mushy. Just, ewh.
Two. Somehow I feel like I could express more in English.
Three. One of my English teacher said something like "If you want be fluent in English, you have to think in English." Since then I practicing by having fake convos with people in my head using English (weird, eh? well I am~) and thinking in English. That helps a lot. But sometimes I often forgot Indonesian words for several things, especially while having real conversation hahaha

Surprise!

I lost my phone. It was stolen in a bus I ride last night. Then once I got home, a cousin who's currently living with us describe me the one who picked it. (She has some sixth sense). Argh I think I saw such person in bus-.- Like I tweeted, maybe it's God's way of warning me for being too attached to it lately.
So for everyone who needs to contact my number, it won't be available for awhile.

Actually, just this morning, my parents asked me "Which one you want, Galaxy Note 2 or S3? Though we don't know when we'll buy it.." Seriously I don't think I deserve that T.T Now I feel bad for losing that phone. Well I'm sad but it's not that important.... I don't think I deserve getting a new one soon :(

 I said GalNote2 but.... hey it's freakin expensive. (finally understood what my friend said about GalNote 2 is 'not good') Then I said I don't mind getting GalNote (1) but it's 'only' cheaper by 500K. So..... currently wondering which phone should I buy. One not as expensive as GalNote 2 but I want it to have latest Android system.............  well, don't mind me.

My lost phone is Sony Ericsson Xperia X10. I used for about 2 years. It's recent condition wasn't good. Battery easily drained, constantly error once till countless times a day... Plus several days ago I broke a tiny bit part of it (I still own that broken piece). And this past week I kept saying 'Maybe this phone wanna get a change, freaking annoying.' Now I really have to change it with a new one orz

Rainy Morning

Actually my real dream since I was kid is leaving home. It's vexing here. Once you are in, it's hard to get out. My friends here are only books and internet connection. So I've been dreaming of this: living alone in my own home/flat/apartment and having my own car. I need private space and freedom, which this place couldn't provide me.
But..... I have to be patient. 1 more year till graduation. Then I'll work. One day I will surely move out of here.

Self-encouragement

You reap what you sow. That's what you got for not paying attention in class, slacking when studying and lacking of effort while you know you're not that good. Crying won't raise your scores. You keep saying whatever you do, you did it for yourself. Good or bad, the one who receive the most impact is you. You didn't do well enough to deserve better score. You should be grateful you didn't get worse than a C.

For the next term, you know what you should do. Don't lose focus. Stop slacking. Put more effort. No pain no gain. You'll get what you deserve, depends on how well you'll do it.

Holiday

Today is the 12th day-off. I still have 27 more days till the new term. What have I done these past days? Japanese test, check. Reunion, check. Further planning for Singapore trip, check. Watching anime/drama, check. Shaving leg hair, check. Seems nothing much. Ah, I haven't learnt driving, haven't read several novels, haven't drawn anything, haven't...... I don't what else I wanna do.
People saying that we should still be productive during holiday. But I think.... being lazy and laid back in holiday, doing nothing much, is fine. Especially for students. In 1 year, I'll graduate and work. Once I become a working-person, I'll no longer have chance to do nothing for a month.
Uh oh getting sleepy. 잘자

2011 Golden Disk Awards Nominees.

This list I took from AllKpop.
But I would like to point some flaws from this year GDA, from Grand Prize nominees. Now, I would like to give you explanation of this several categories below from wikipedia.
Album Award is Grand Prize. Awarded to the performer of the best of the best full-length album belong to "Records of the Year".
{Records of the Year are awarded to the performers of top 5 full-length albums of the year.}
Digital Album Award is Grand Prize in Digital Releasing. Awarded to the performer of the best of the best full-length album, mini-album (extended play) or single (which was digital released), belong to "Records of the Year in Digital Releasing".
{Records of the Year in Digital Releasing are awarded to the performers of top 5 full-length album, mini-albums (extended plays) or singles of the year (which was digital released).}
Most Popular Artist Award is Popularity Awards of the Year. Awarded to the performers who gained popularity of the year.

Nah let's see what's strange. [...] is my comment.

Album Award
Presented to the most popular artist based on album sales figures for the year and ratings from judges

- 2PM (Hands Up)
- 4minute (4MINUTES Left)
- Leessang (Asura Balbalta)
- Jay Park (Take a Deeper Look) [1st mini album]
- Brown Eyed Girls (Sixth Sense)
- Sung Si Kyung (The First)
- Super Junior (Mr. Simple)
- SNSD (The Boys)
- Wonder Girls (Wonder World)
- After School (Virgin)
- Lee Seung Gi (Tonight)
- Jang Gi Ha and the Faces (Jang Gi Ha and the Faces)
- B2ST (Fiction & Fact)
- CNBLUE (First Step)
- F.T. Island (Return) [??? mini album]
- f(x) (Pinocchio)
- INFINITE (Over the Top)
- KARA (Step)
- MBLAQ (BLAQ Style)
- miss A (A Class)

Okay, did you see what I found strange? I found 2 nominees with mini albums. Honestly, I don't mind with them being the nominees, I like their songs. But it supposed to be award for full-length album. Wonder why? Me too.
Another thing is there are no TVXQ (HoMin) and JYJ. Some other people protested about no Big Bang too, but I think it's normal since they released a mini album. And I also understand why JYJ isn't on the list since they are blocked like almost everywhere, so no wonder if they are being blocked here too (that's really unfair! argh!). But no TVXQ is strange. They sold more than 200.000 copies for Keep Your Head Down in the first half this year. It's a full album and they are not nominated? If you check Hanteo site now, they are in the top for this week. There's something fishy going on, I think.
So GDA, if you still want to have the honor of Korean Grammy or the most prestigious awards, please fix your way in choosing nominees.

Kpop here.

I'm bored with kpop. Except from my favorite artists, no other group has interesting songs.
Here, kpop almost everywhere. Everyone know about that and some of them become fans. Though there are people who dislike it and saying that "kpop is gay" and stuff. Well, as fans you can't be mad when yourself love HyunSaeng or KyuSaeng moment... like ELF's EunHae.
But most of them talk about Super Junior n SNSD. I don't hate them, but I'm not a fan. When people around you kept talking about the same stuff which isn't interesting for you.. it become boring.
So.... I'm going (back?) to jpop. It never dull. I'm interested in Koda Kumi now. Really like her song for NazoDi opening <3
Back to the topic. In my college, which most of the students are male, there are a lot of SNSD's fans. I'm not gonna call them sone, since I think they like them because of their pretty faces and sexy legs only.
A classmate of mine sometimes randomly sings their song, and he sings it wrongly. He only sings based pn what he hears, probably. My another classmate (a girl) once played The Boys loudly. If you live in Korea where everybody, at least, enjoy kpop, I don't mind. But here, not everyone enjoys it. Sometimes things like that should be enjoyed privately, I think.
Well that's one of reasons for feeling bored of kpop. Gonna add more later.
Oops, 7:23. Should prepare for my 8AM class-_- Gotta go.

SS501 changed, and so did Triple S.

I'm such a lazy girl. Planned to blog this since my last post but just typed it now.

Okay let's get on to the topic.

Dear pretties Triple S fellas, we've changed a lot. Now we have sub-division of fan groups, one for each SS501 members. Henecia, YES, ThanKyu, Jungmin fans (no name decided i think) and Jjunaway. But seems some of them are not Triple S (anymore). Especially from Henecia. Well alot of people agree with me with this matter, and I'm not forcing you to agree too. I've read a Henecia blog.  She stated that she's no longer a Triple S, she'll just stay as Henecia. I don't want to blame her or whatever... And seems some more of people also has the same thought as her. It makes me kinda sad. Well, it's her life and her decision so I respect it.

But it makes me think, if lots of us has the same way of thinking like her and her friends.. that means no Triple S anymore? Which led to possiblity that no SS501 reunion? I don't want that. I also read another fan who said that she's a fans of every member but she is not a Triple S, she wants them to stay as solo singer, not reunited.  So, as you see, a lot of people change. You, whoever else who read this, maybe also change too. I also changed. Everybody changes, but maybe you don't feel the same.

I keep myself updated with each of every member new or tweet and fancams etc, but I no longer feel the "kya kya" feeling as much as when I started to be a Triple S. Maybe because I got bored? Or maybe used to see them? But I still love them. Updating myself regularly with SS501 news had become a habit. Sometimes I feel like I want to stop being a fan but it's hard. I end up coming to them again.

Changes aren't always something good.....but it's not something bad too. Changes bring us forward, to be a better person. I hope everyone who are currently a fan of solo member of SS501...when SS501 come back as 5 later on...you will support them together. And who knows when that time come,  you'll become a Triple S once again, or maybe a new Triple S? :)

Everbody's Changing, and so does SS501.

  Leader's comeback this time is somehow more controversial (?). With his blunt answers in interview, makes some Triple S a bit taken a back. He stated that he keep in contact with some members and doesn't keep in contact with other members. Nah, I took his statement as below.

  That statement is true I think. I won't judge him that he's forgetting them and so on. Isn't it natural for people to grow a bit apart with close friends, when each of them go separate way? I'm not saying they are no longer close friends, it's just (probably) they are not as close as before. My best friends when I was 6th grader were not my best friends when I was 7th grader. Even a year of separating brings a lot of change. I saw this in Pretty Little Liars, a TV serial. A group of girls who were best friends are not anymore in 1 year later. But, they are still friends. Only not as close as before. So, I'm sure Leader doesn't forget about Jung Min nor Hyung Jun. Anyway, even if they are still close with each other... he doesn't have to say it, does he? Actions speak louder than words. And also more believable. Although he said he doesn't keep in contact with them, I think he'd still updated himself about their activities.

  Plus, they are matured. The way they have fun and keep in contact when they are in Deja Vu era for example, and now, must be different. They are still dorks, but in a different way. Just because they are not seen together it doesn't mean they never hang out together. And yeah, they are busy too. Those 5 never in Korea at the same moment. Right now, Hyun Joong in Japan while the other 4 in Korea. Even if all of them in Korea, their schedules is tight.

So please for any Triple S who read this, I suggest you, please don't accused that Leader forgot his members or SS501 will never comeback or whatsoever. Such accusation will hurt him and the other members. Yeah, maybe Leader has change. But Young Saeng, Kyu Jong, Jung Min and Hyung Jun also have change. Their solo activities change them. They have better talents in many areas because now each of them have their own coaches. Isn't that good for them?

  Fellas, they asked you to believe in their words. As simple as that. And I am. I will believed in their words, until there are proofs that they are lying and not keeping their promise. SS501 has always been keeping their promise, although maybe they take a long time to fulfill it. And if they can't keep their promise, I'm sure there are explanations, and I will try to understand it as long as it's acceptable with my logic.

Next post will be the changes in Triple S.

Oh, please note that all of these are my opinion only. I'm not trying to make a fanwar. It's up to you how you'd take this post.

Kyu is Ambiguous

It's been twice that my friends mistake my Kyu as Kyuhyun, not Kyujong. Nah fellas, I'm not an ELF. I'm a Triple S. That means whenever I tweet or write or say Kyu, that will SS501's Kim Kyujong. It will never be Super Junior's Cho Kyuhyun. It will also apply to other terms that maybe will be the same with other fandom. KyuMin is Kyujong and Jungmin for me, not Kyuhyun and Sungmin. And actually I once read or heard somewhere that senior ELFs warning other ELF to not using KyuMin term, because Triple S already use it first. But seems the newbies doesn't know. Well, I don't really mind tho...., since my KyuMin is rarely together. Usually it will be KyuSaeng and MinJoon. Wish no other people will do this mistake.

a piece of life

should admit i'm not a good blogger. but my mind feels full and let this post be a somewhat pensieve for my thoughts.

firstly i'm already 17. but i prefer being 16... 17 is too much responsibility.. and it's close to 20.
okay that's not what i want to blog about-.-

now almost time for end-term test. and i got a quiz tomorrow. yeah now isn't the right time to blog but somehow i can't bring myself to study *sigh*
but still.. i wish i get good scores. but have to turn it to 'i will' that's what's hard about study. changing your good marks wish to a will.
i do afraid for the dropped out thingy my college has-,- but.. argh. *frustrated*
and i have a group task. but my team... is no good==". i have to work my ass off to finish the task. i do that for my sake, not their.
my last confession.. is.. i killed someone. no, it's a joke. i like someone. but he already had a girlfriend. annoying eh?-_- it's been a reaaaaaally long time since i like someone but now i like the wrong person. good job me-_-. oh don't ask further about him. i'm already kind hearted and embarrassed enough to admit it.

next issue is my country.
why we have to pay for something free? i can see it clearly that the service provided to make an ID is free, but the staff bluntly said that have to pay. and i know that the money goes to his pockets. annoying. additionally the service they provided isn't good. some of the staffs in the room just sit and chat and only 2 people working. 1 receiving the citizens and other processing the data on computer. they said the network is sucks so that's why we have to wait for a long time. but can't they think of something to make their works faster and more efficient?
and also i read Alanda Kariza's blog post. her mother sentenced 10 years in prison and have to pay fines Rp 10 billions for something she didn't do. her bosses who actually guilty only sentenced 8 years and 6 years. why this country can't see which is right? why those people could only see money? why they can't see responsibility? they should works based on the rules, not based on the money they get. maybe they don't have enough salary *or they think it's not enough because of their greed* but they could works harder and find other better way to earn money. they shouldn't ask for things they shouldn't get nor works based on other people "request". (IMO, there's someone who has power wants to get her mother as a scapegoat)

i wish my generation.. when now they all talks about bringing this country to be better, they'll do it for sure. i hope my generation won't change their minds later when they already being someone powerful. in 20 or 30 years, i wish youth nowadays, my generation, could use their power to change my country to be better.. like they wish it now.