Hidup

Hidup itu tuntutan.
Seberat apapun, sudah tidak ingin dan mencoba bunuh diri, akan ada yang mencoba menyelamatkan dan dituntut untuk hidup.

Hidup itu pilihan.
Antara kebutuhan dan keinginan. Antara diri sendiri atau orang lain. Antara prinsip dan kebiasaan.

Hidup itu kewajiban.
Sebagai anak. Sebagai orangtua, Sebagai pasangan. Sebagai atasan. Sebagai bawahan. Sebagai hamba Tuhan. Sebagai warga negara. Sebagai pemimpin. Sebagai pengikut. Sebagai manusia.


Hidup itu dinikmati.
Karena tidak semua hal berjalan sesuai harapan, sampai mati.

2011 Golden Disk Awards Nominees.

This list I took from AllKpop.
But I would like to point some flaws from this year GDA, from Grand Prize nominees. Now, I would like to give you explanation of this several categories below from wikipedia.
Album Award is Grand Prize. Awarded to the performer of the best of the best full-length album belong to "Records of the Year".
{Records of the Year are awarded to the performers of top 5 full-length albums of the year.}
Digital Album Award is Grand Prize in Digital Releasing. Awarded to the performer of the best of the best full-length album, mini-album (extended play) or single (which was digital released), belong to "Records of the Year in Digital Releasing".
{Records of the Year in Digital Releasing are awarded to the performers of top 5 full-length album, mini-albums (extended plays) or singles of the year (which was digital released).}
Most Popular Artist Award is Popularity Awards of the Year. Awarded to the performers who gained popularity of the year.

Nah let's see what's strange. [...] is my comment.

Album Award
Presented to the most popular artist based on album sales figures for the year and ratings from judges

- 2PM (Hands Up)
- 4minute (4MINUTES Left)
- Leessang (Asura Balbalta)
- Jay Park (Take a Deeper Look) [1st mini album]
- Brown Eyed Girls (Sixth Sense)
- Sung Si Kyung (The First)
- Super Junior (Mr. Simple)
- SNSD (The Boys)
- Wonder Girls (Wonder World)
- After School (Virgin)
- Lee Seung Gi (Tonight)
- Jang Gi Ha and the Faces (Jang Gi Ha and the Faces)
- B2ST (Fiction & Fact)
- CNBLUE (First Step)
- F.T. Island (Return) [??? mini album]
- f(x) (Pinocchio)
- INFINITE (Over the Top)
- KARA (Step)
- MBLAQ (BLAQ Style)
- miss A (A Class)

Okay, did you see what I found strange? I found 2 nominees with mini albums. Honestly, I don't mind with them being the nominees, I like their songs. But it supposed to be award for full-length album. Wonder why? Me too.
Another thing is there are no TVXQ (HoMin) and JYJ. Some other people protested about no Big Bang too, but I think it's normal since they released a mini album. And I also understand why JYJ isn't on the list since they are blocked like almost everywhere, so no wonder if they are being blocked here too (that's really unfair! argh!). But no TVXQ is strange. They sold more than 200.000 copies for Keep Your Head Down in the first half this year. It's a full album and they are not nominated? If you check Hanteo site now, they are in the top for this week. There's something fishy going on, I think.
So GDA, if you still want to have the honor of Korean Grammy or the most prestigious awards, please fix your way in choosing nominees.

SS501 changed, and so did Triple S.

I'm such a lazy girl. Planned to blog this since my last post but just typed it now.

Okay let's get on to the topic.

Dear pretties Triple S fellas, we've changed a lot. Now we have sub-division of fan groups, one for each SS501 members. Henecia, YES, ThanKyu, Jungmin fans (no name decided i think) and Jjunaway. But seems some of them are not Triple S (anymore). Especially from Henecia. Well alot of people agree with me with this matter, and I'm not forcing you to agree too. I've read a Henecia blog.  She stated that she's no longer a Triple S, she'll just stay as Henecia. I don't want to blame her or whatever... And seems some more of people also has the same thought as her. It makes me kinda sad. Well, it's her life and her decision so I respect it.

But it makes me think, if lots of us has the same way of thinking like her and her friends.. that means no Triple S anymore? Which led to possiblity that no SS501 reunion? I don't want that. I also read another fan who said that she's a fans of every member but she is not a Triple S, she wants them to stay as solo singer, not reunited.  So, as you see, a lot of people change. You, whoever else who read this, maybe also change too. I also changed. Everybody changes, but maybe you don't feel the same.

I keep myself updated with each of every member new or tweet and fancams etc, but I no longer feel the "kya kya" feeling as much as when I started to be a Triple S. Maybe because I got bored? Or maybe used to see them? But I still love them. Updating myself regularly with SS501 news had become a habit. Sometimes I feel like I want to stop being a fan but it's hard. I end up coming to them again.

Changes aren't always something good.....but it's not something bad too. Changes bring us forward, to be a better person. I hope everyone who are currently a fan of solo member of SS501...when SS501 come back as 5 later on...you will support them together. And who knows when that time come,  you'll become a Triple S once again, or maybe a new Triple S? :)

random thought

super bored now in kosan. and well i'm not in the mood to talk with my fellow kos-mates. *bahasa yang aneh* jadinya ngeblog aja yuk~

masih soal 2PM yang kemaren. denger2 para hottest yang ke bandara ditipu sama soundsistem *si promotornya* soal mereka keluar dari gate mananya. haaaaaa kalo gitu misal ss501 especially jungmin ke indo jangan mereka deh promotornya. jungmin said airport is boring so he is always happy seeing fans in the airport. kalo kayak gitu promotornya mah nanti kasian jungminnya-,- ga ada yang nyambut dia.......

ngomong2 bokap gw tidak terlalu suka dengan fangirling thingy. dia bilang suka sih boleh tapi ga usah segitunya sampe pergi ke bandara buat liat artisnya or datengin konsernya yang ada di luar kota. dia bilang memperbudak diri sendiri. actually i HATE him saying such things. hello dia ngatain anaknya sendiri budak gitu. i like SS501 not only because of their face, or music. i like them because i could learn something from them, because they have good personality. their nice attitude membuat gw merasa dihargai sebagai fans. dan juga gw beli album ori walau mahal pun karena gw bener2 dukung mereka. ibaratnya idol dan fans itu hubungannya simbiosis mutualisme. ya mereka dapet duit dari kita sebagai penghasilan dan kita pun juga walau keluar duit dapet hiburan yang bener2 worth dengan harga segitu. kalo menurut bokap gw yang mestinya beli yang ori itu produk dalam negeri, yang luar negeri ga usah ori, bajakan aja. kalo lagu dalam negerinya sesuai dengan selera gw ya bakal gw beli lah. sayang aja gw lebih suka yang dari korea n jepang.
anyway i never argue with my dad about that coz i know people opinions are different with each other. kalo dilawan bawaan gw pasti nyolot jadinya ujung2nya gw bilang yayaya terserah aja. and most of my opinions are not the same with my parents'. dan perbedaan opini itu ga cuma soal idol2an aja ya, tapi juga hal2 lainnya. makanya gw dengan egoisnya wishing and hoping and praying kalo siapapun anak ss501 mau ke indo, please banget jangan di mikie holiday brastagi, walau gw tau mereka emang promotor bagus. gw pengen banget liat mereka dan gw ga bakal boleh kesana dengan alesan yang menurut gw kurang masuk akal. kalo ga dibolehin dengan alesan jauh bahaya sendirian dsb sih masih bisa deh gw terima *dan gw udah punya argumen juga kalo alesan mereka begitu*. heeem mau tulis apalagi ya? diseling solat n makan jadi lupa=.= sekian dulu sepertinya.

a piece of life

should admit i'm not a good blogger. but my mind feels full and let this post be a somewhat pensieve for my thoughts.

firstly i'm already 17. but i prefer being 16... 17 is too much responsibility.. and it's close to 20.
okay that's not what i want to blog about-.-

now almost time for end-term test. and i got a quiz tomorrow. yeah now isn't the right time to blog but somehow i can't bring myself to study *sigh*
but still.. i wish i get good scores. but have to turn it to 'i will' that's what's hard about study. changing your good marks wish to a will.
i do afraid for the dropped out thingy my college has-,- but.. argh. *frustrated*
and i have a group task. but my team... is no good==". i have to work my ass off to finish the task. i do that for my sake, not their.
my last confession.. is.. i killed someone. no, it's a joke. i like someone. but he already had a girlfriend. annoying eh?-_- it's been a reaaaaaally long time since i like someone but now i like the wrong person. good job me-_-. oh don't ask further about him. i'm already kind hearted and embarrassed enough to admit it.

next issue is my country.
why we have to pay for something free? i can see it clearly that the service provided to make an ID is free, but the staff bluntly said that have to pay. and i know that the money goes to his pockets. annoying. additionally the service they provided isn't good. some of the staffs in the room just sit and chat and only 2 people working. 1 receiving the citizens and other processing the data on computer. they said the network is sucks so that's why we have to wait for a long time. but can't they think of something to make their works faster and more efficient?
and also i read Alanda Kariza's blog post. her mother sentenced 10 years in prison and have to pay fines Rp 10 billions for something she didn't do. her bosses who actually guilty only sentenced 8 years and 6 years. why this country can't see which is right? why those people could only see money? why they can't see responsibility? they should works based on the rules, not based on the money they get. maybe they don't have enough salary *or they think it's not enough because of their greed* but they could works harder and find other better way to earn money. they shouldn't ask for things they shouldn't get nor works based on other people "request". (IMO, there's someone who has power wants to get her mother as a scapegoat)

i wish my generation.. when now they all talks about bringing this country to be better, they'll do it for sure. i hope my generation won't change their minds later when they already being someone powerful. in 20 or 30 years, i wish youth nowadays, my generation, could use their power to change my country to be better.. like they wish it now.