i dunno how should i titled this post

i want to watch cn blue concert here. but............................. i'm going to singapore next year. i'm afraid that my savings won't be enough for next year plan if i use it for cn blue tix. when i ask my dad for permission he also said so. and he doesn't want to give extra money. seriously i want both T.T really aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaargsjfhsk   and i think i won't bought leader 2nd mini album. whyyyyyyy?????? i want to make some money. but i don't even know what should i do. can i pray for the concert to be cancelled? yeah i'm so selfish. really selfish that if i can't watch, so it would be better that other people also can't. oh well i dunno anymore. someone help meeeee T.T