Babbling

HEY C BE HAPPY!
(dark) February has passed, so be cheerful! Your friend is getting married, several has birthdays and you'll go on a trip!

Or no. There's TKD try out test on 17. I miss hanging out with friends, doing almost nothing in 2 weeks makes me feel trapped, stuffy. Makes me having all those negative thoughts again. Actually I don't really need to go to other city or such, watching a movie or just walking around a mall will do. Yeah I know I did that last month but there are several other friends I want to meet. Geez I'm bored.

Well I tried pilates this morning. For a 30 minutes exercise it was quite tiring, makes me feel extra hungry.

I am perfectly fine. I don't need to go to doctors, eat medicines, or got a USG. Hah.

Seriously I don't have to be jealous towards such thing right? Such a shallow thought C, you are so superficial.

Frozen's 'Let It Go' won Oscar for Best OST. Makes me want to watch it, gonna search for its torrent after this.

Stuck at home means doing chores and makes me feel like a maid. Maybe because I'm not sincere in doing those lol. How to grow my sincerity? Pft.

Nuri Safarina

Nuri Safarina, or nicknamed Nue, is a friend of mine. We lived in the same all-girl  boarding house for two years until the house caught in fire in 2012. In that boarding house there were 8 first years(when we came in). After the fire, 8 of us actually want to stay in the same house again, but we can't find a house that can accomodate of us all. So we went each on our own way, but still in contact especially if one of us' birthday coming up.  This is the photo of us, from back in 2012. 

Nue is the long haired girl in red

Somehow it's hard to get all of us together after the fire. The last time we are in full team was on August 24, Nue's birthday last year. There are photos actually, but in Kak Yougi's (Nue's boyfriend) camera and weren't uploaded. Even in our graduation there's only 7 of us, since Paci decided not to attend. 

On the night of January 29, 2014, she got an accident, suddenly fell from the motorcycle on her way back to Bintaro with her boyfriend. I only know about the accident in January 30 morning, because Kak Yougi is tweeting from Nue's twitter. Arum and I went to visit her on RSPP that night, but visiting hour was over already so we only talk to her mom. Her brain got internal bleeding, so she was unconscious. A week later, because Arum and I worked in the same building we went there again, finally got to see her. Still unconscious, in comma state. We also met Manda. She and her mom said the day before Nue was gaining consciousness and recognizing people around her. After that, her condition suddenly dropped into comma. Arum and I visit her again on February 18 night (which is Manda's birthday). Then on February 19 noon I made a post in this blog before this. By the night I got news that she passed away.

Life is short eh? She was just 21.There are several plans that pisokers (our group of 8's name) haven't able to accomplish. Once we went to Bogor, staying over at Vindy's house. But Nue couldn't join because she has to meet her advisor for her final assignment. It's as if she got her way of revenge because we left her at that time. Then we promised to go to Bandung to compensate for leaving her to Bogor, staying over at her house. Well, we did go to Bandung, visiting her house and final resting place. Life is irony after all..... Ah, we also haven't took our photo together in photo studio. Now I think the 7 of us won't do. it will feel different, awkward, sad. From her death day on, my birthday (January 31) and Manda's won't ever be the same. 

It's only been a week, but I miss her. She is really lively, full of spirit. When you sad, she'll cheer you up and bring back your good mood. She has unique and loud laugh, the kind that will make you laugh too. She is pretty, dilligent, and friendly. One of the best of friend you can get. I still remember on one occassion she and Arum suddenly got into my room, bringing laptop, making me watch horror movie with them. I hate horrors, but she insisted and even turning off the room light. So each of us hugging pillow, and watch. The movie was Shutter (Thailand version). 

There are many moments with her, I can't possibly writing them all. But pretty Nuri, I'll remember those all, with a smile (and tears probably haha). As many said, the world is ugly and you deserve heaven. May God washed away your sins and accepting all your good deeds. May you rest in peace in the best place God gave you.

(don't be sad Paci for not in this picture :p)

In between

It's been almost 3 weeks since Nue's accident. I guess my birthday's (and Manda's) will never be the same. Last night Arum and I visited her for the 3rd time. She looked so thin. There are lots of mark of needles in her arms. Her mom said if her time comes, we should be prepared. I really want to rebut her, but she looks so tired. Nue's mom might look strong in the outside, but who knows in the inside. Kak Yougi too looks tired. It must be very traumatic for him.

Seems such accident is common recently. My mom's friend has a neighbor who is also in critical condition because of similar accident. We should be more careful eh.....

Last night when we visited Nue there are also a couple, friends of Kak Yougi. From the way they pray, tehy are Christian. As I saw them praying near Nue, there's also a record of someone reading Quran playing. Seeing such scene, somehow I feel peaceful. Nue, everyone is praying for you. Even the people who don't know you personally are hoping that you are healthy again. Whatever way people use for praying, there's only one God. I know He listens to our prayer, and He will answer it in the best way according to Him.

February

It might be the only post for this month? Saking ga ada apa-apanya hidup gw hahaha. Senin besok hari magang terakhir, agak bingung pamitannya gimana. Can I just leave begitu saja? hahahaha. Saking ga mau attachednya nomer hape pun cuma punya nomernya Mbak Uti. Kayaknya dia bakal paling jadi yang ngangenin selama magang ini, abisan absurd banget hahahaha. Cepet nikah ya mbak, biar suaminya hepi ketawa tiap hari ngeliat kelakuanmu *tumben banget ini gw*. Setelah itu kembali nganggur, errr udah bikin plan mau ngapa-ngapainnya sih, semoga bukan sekedar wacana *jangan mager makanya C!* Hmmm yaudah aja kali ya, gatau mau nulis apa. Smile C! :) :) :)

300!

Yep this post is the 300th post in my blog, sengaja ditahan2 ga ngeblog biar barengan sama 20th birthday. Ugh 20, sounds old eh? haha. Terus sekarang malah bingung mau nulis apa. 20, means allowed to drink alcohol in Japan. Tapi disini kudu nunggu 21 lalala~ Kinda hope for today will be somewhat special tapi kayaknya yaudah hari libur tanggal merah biasa. Ohya, pas imlek ini, tahun kuda. Hmm yaudah kebiasa juga sih jadi 'biasa', nohing special lol. Sounds pitiful? Oh no don't be lol. Uh danger makin ngalor ngidul ga jelas. Yaudah deh gitu aja kali yak. Sisa hari ini masih ada 9 jam 14 menit, maybe there'll be something special later, tapi ya ga ngarep amat, biar kecewanya juga ga amat.
Well, happy birthday to me! Semoga semakin dewasa dalam segala hal, semakin sabar, jangan sering ngomong 'fak-syit' kalo apa-apa, semakin positif pikirannya, semakin.. apalagi ya jeleknya gw? haha. Enough then. Ciao!

The 20 before 20

Hari yang gabut, seperti biasa. Sempet kepikiran untuk bolos sih karena kemaren Stasiun Tanah Abang banjir dan ga fungsi, tapi ternyata hari ini udah normal lagi. Gabut itu....... ga enak. Jadi bengong mikirin macem-macem, yang maybe sebenernya ga perlu dipikirin. Dan kalo ga ngapa-ngapain ga bisa kayak di rumah, tidur-tiduran or maybe tetiba rajin nyapu ngepel *agak mustahil* *plak*. Ga ada temen ngobrolnya pula karena sekeliling pada ada kerjaan. Terus tadi nama gw diminta buat dimasukin kata pengantar di skripsi temen magang kyah *norak*. Sebelomnya(read: Laporan PKL) ga ada yang nyebutin nama gw kayaknya hahahaha #yaudahsih. Selamat bergelar S.E. ya bro! Kalo tunangan lo naik pangkat jadi mempelai undang gw ye xD. Huft sepertinya giliran gw nyekripsi masih lama. Semoga aja future bos gw bisa dirayu buat ngasih ijin sekolah segera :p Ulalalaaaa bahkan gatau mau nulis apalagi. Yaudah babay dudududu~

Vacuum cleaner

It's been 2 weeks since my last post. Well, I don't really have anything to write about.... In the span of 2 weeks 2 orang temen magang gw sidang, yang satu skripsi yang satu laporan magang. Dua-duanya lulus, yey! Congrats! Jakarta mulai masuk musim banjir lagi, tapi kalau diliat-liat peta banjirnya udah berkurang jauh dari 2013, all hail duet Jokowi-Ahok~ Kinda remind me of last year, nyaris ga bisa berangkat kampus padahal UAS. Jadilah dateng telat. Untung 'cuma' pilihan ganda, kelarnya pun tetep sebelum waktu abis fufufu~ Kemaren ini adek gw nontonin Reply 1994, terus jadi nimbrungin. Agak kecewa Na-jeong jadinya sama si Oppa, kasian Chil Bongnya. Yaudah Chil Bong buat gw aja, eh viewers maksudnya. Terus karena background lokasinya kosan, jadi kangen kosan. Walau kosan gw ibu kosnya ga kayak di drama itu, tapi orang-orangnya n suasananya bikin kangen :" Plus ga mungkin cinlok haha. I supposedly wrote Industry Overview for this TP doc tapi bener-bener ga ada ide buat nulisnya orz. 'K,thx,bye.

Ohya judul postnya maksudnya biar ngebersihin debu dua minggu ini blog nganggur haha.

2013 Kaleidoscope

Tetiba inget tahun baru 2013 mau bikin kaleidoskpnya 2012 tapi ga jadi hahaha yaudahlah yaa. Sebenernya ga terlalu penting juga bikin kaleidoskop, berhubung nyaris tiap ada apa-apa gw tulis. 2013 gave me a lot.
Teman, kenalan, pacar, mantan(?), atasan. Seneng, sedih, bete, marah, surprised, puas, sakit, hoki, sial, nyesel. Komplit kayaknya. 2014 ini semoga lebih banyak yang bagus-bagsunya deh ya daripada yang jeleknya~